// for if someone gets too close, the pins stick further in

lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea to the open arms of the sea lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me ill be coming home, wait for me oh, my love, my darling ive hungered for your touch a long, lonely time and time goes by so slowly and time can do so much are you still mine? i need your love, i oh i need your love god speed your love to me

went to cine today at arnd 7.45pm i think. went to meet ping first at cheers, then went up to 'funkypool' hahah what a dumb name to meet chang and darius, hahah i beat both of them at pool !! :) yea, then ping left, so we went to eat and waited for mel to come join us aft her dinner at hyatt. then she came and we all went to the bowling alley, to bowl of cos, with darius's fren too. okayy, i lost to darius but i won the rest. come on lohh, i only lost darius by 20 points ! unfair. hmph. cosmic bowlin is very fun but i jus dont like the techno music. hahah yupp, then aft tht mel, her bro and i cabbed home and i reached home at arnd 11pm? surprised my mom didnt say anythin. haha i guess it was pretty fun, althou it was jus a short while out ?

mm, thurs we went to suntec at arnd 7 plus i think ? went with mel, kris, chang, santos, gab, charsiew pao. haha yea. before tht we were at paragon rooftop playin truth or dare. hahah pretty silly. then we headed down to suntec cos i needed to meet my mom. then darius joined us. haha realised tht my ah boy gets along very well with my ah ma. haha mm, quite alot of unpleasant things happened aft tht but oh wells, shant talk abt them. mm, we jus slacked arnd suntec convention hall cos of my mom :| yea, aft quite a while, we went to look for food. by then it was like pretty late. mm, then left with darius, mel, chang, me and mom. we went to kenny rogers, but we were late and the food was pathetic, so we headed for tony roma's but it was closing and my mom didnt want to eat there, so we left and finally ate at crystal jade, my mom's treat. WOAH. so damn hungry. mm, i think i ate alot but heard frm darius tht chang didnt really dare to eat cos i ordered lotsa fried food. hahah SORRY

hey... hahax.. yepxx bloggin fer u now.. since u can't go online yea? hahax.. hmm rotting @ home now rite ahah ;x.. same here.. ;P.. hur hur.. *jealous* u getting cookies and .. i not bleahh >.<.. ahhax eeehhh!!! she juz sms.. i getting cookies too!! yayy ;x.. ahhax.. yummy yummy.. ;x.. ahhax.. orh well.. u take care yea? i noe lotsa things are happening to u now.. buden.. juz noe tt u always haf yr gd frenx around u ... esp me!! ;x.. so dun keep everyting to yrself.. will help to share burden wif ya kae? and DUN EVER go cut yrself.. its kinda dumb n stupid.. hurting yrself.. wun get u anywhere to solving the problems.. kae! =].. *smile*=].. always always remember.. tt frenx are put there for a reason so.. u can vent yr anger on me or watever anyting!! =].. so long yr stress and upset-ness all ~ everyting ~ gone.. tts wat i wan see kae!! cheer up yea!! =].. there is will always be God watching over us in everyting tt we do.. he will help us yea? i will remember ya in my praye

this song means loads to me :( lately uve been askin me if all my words are true dont you know, ill do anythin for you sometimes i haven been good to you sometimes i made you cry and im sorry for everythin but i promise you girl, i promise you this when the blue night is over my face on the dark side of the world in space when im all alone with the stars above you are the one i love and there is no need to worry girl my heart is sealed for you and no one's gonna take it away cos i promise you girl, i promise you this when the blue night is over my face on the dark side of the world in space when im all alone with the stars above you are the one i love your voice is calling to me in my dreams and my love is stronger than it has ever been

today was fun ! :) haha met mel, darius, fish and big butt at cine today. mm, i was late as usual. sorry mel and darius for waiting for me ! -grins- but its worth the wait right ? hahah oh well, then we headed to play pool but before tht, went to say hi to gabriel, chang and santos. then we all went to play pool tog ! haha i won gabriel ! and i lost to santos, haiya, thts pretty expected. and tht santos damn funny man ! hahah he and his stupid farting. hahaha :| anyhows, we were chased out cos of GABRIEL cos he's underage. mm, i am too lahh but at least im still born in the yr 1987 right ? hahah alrights. then aft tht we went to bowl. was playin with big butt, fish and darius. and yet, my score was the highest -grins- the guys, so sia sway. hahah then we changed lanes. yupp..and darius actually striked in three times ?! haha tht was definitely sheer luck. hoho. then johnathon and some other guy workin there were bettin on whether i cld strike or spare of anythin and johnathon won

slept at arnd 6am ytd ! hahah was talkin to mel and darius on the phone but darius, tht lazy pig, blacked out so fast. so mel and i were talkin abt him. hah so funny. too bad darius, you missed out on all the juicy news. mm, i think mel's still sleepin. we were talkin abt almost every crap thing we can find to talk abt :) first time mel didnt sound tired. oh well, im stuck at home AGAIN. growls. anyhows, darius recorded this damn dumb song. hahah i shall try to post it up here. hoho damn funny !

i never had anybody treat me quite like you do i love your honesty we met, we clicked, we shared a vibe tht was true and it was plain to see i did not want to face the truth you said you had a girl and you were so in love with her and nobody else what do you do when someone dont love you they show you all their feelings like ure a fren like ure a fren what do you say when things dont go your way and ure frozen in a picture like ure a fren like ure a fren i dont want to be your fren, no way when i was trapped i was dependant on you and there was no escape i was a fool to think tht i was the one i let you criticise everythin i done, nono but i know i cant have you and i cant live without you but i guess i cant have it my way for the loving ure not feeling my heart is still breathing boy, how can you treat me this way ? jus like a fren. no more friends

the warmth in your smile is the warmth tht i desire cos its cold and lonely in this place and i need to get close to the flames in a fire and lose myself in ytd it's gonna be a long long long time till i can be with you again and see your smile its gonna be a long long long time till i hold you in my arms all thru the night it's gonna be a long long time looking outside and i feel so uninspired and it rains all thru this lonely night im losing my mind and my soul is feeling tired cos girl you are my guiding light girl ive been missing you, i never thought id feel this way all the feelings i have inside grow stronger everyday girl i want you to know tht ill never let you go ure the only one tht i really want and there's one thing uve gotta know listen girl i need you there's nothing i can do abt it and i wanna hold you and show you how much you mean to me dont you know tht i want you in my life

what a boring day ! :| slept at 5 plus last night all thanks to mel and darius. growls. i was like waiting and waiting for dont know what too. -pouts- anyhows, na, dont be so upset over him alright ? im sure you'll be able to get over him soon. its very tough, i know, but if you keep telling yourself tht he is jus a very very very good fren of yours and tht you dont have any more feelings for him, im sure you'll sooner or later lose tht feeling for him. no matter what, your sista will ALWAYS be here for you whenever you need me okayy ? -hugs ya tight- i guess he is really being selfish cos probably he still likes you too but he cant show it so the only thing he can do is to make sure tht he doesnt lose you as a fren. mm, am i talkin nonsense. whatever it is, im sure with such good looks uve got, you'll be able to find plenty of other guys when you come back to spore okayy ? -grins- of cos my sista is pretty right ? :) so you jus chill and be your happy self okayy ?

to you . i really hope you know what you are doing. when i tried talking to you online, you simply refuse to tell me the reason. a million sorries will not solve the matter. i really wanna know your reason for doing all these silly stuff, promising me you wont do it again will not settle whatever i feel abt the whole issue. if you really still treasure me and him as frens, i want you to explain everythn to us. okayy, at least me. cos whatever uve done is too much and its so hard to imagine tht i gave you so many chances to tell me the truth but you simply refuse to and keep denying your actions. blockin your good fren's sms isnt sth tht i think i can forgive i were him. and till now, i still have no idea what the reason is. i really dont feel like calling you cos i know tht you wld either change the topic again or refuse to tell me the truth. msg me once you are ready to tell the truth. i cant be bothered to ask anymore and dont keep sayin im angry cos im not. and i wld appreciate

oh jus read mel's blog and read abt the converse and sketchers thing. damn funny ! haha cos mel bought this really nice blue sketchers blue shoe while kris bought this red, white converse shoes and i bought this purple, white converse shoes. ahaha then i kris and i realised tht mel walks especially slowly, so we came up with the conclusion tht converse shoes are the best cos we wont lag behind like sketchers. ahah you guys shld really check out mel's speed. so dont buy sketchers ! hahaha lame. so wells :) anyhows, ping. sorry for not joining you ytd dear. i was so busy playing pool myself. mm, im sorry if not everythin turned out well for you. im gonna call you up one of these days and have a real long chat with you okayy ? i promise ! -pinkie promise- yea. must tell me abt tht girl you saw in monks alright ? -grins-

yea. went to play pool with mel, darius, gab, weichang and the rest. hahah darius is improving but i still dont think he can win me. haha -sniggers- however, realised tht weichang can play well ! :) duhh, cos he's my ah boy right ? haha and santos can really play well. kept asking mel and i to bend bend and bend. hoho. aft tht went bowling. gab, darius and chang kept suanin me like shit. i gutter ball they ALL clap so loudly. BUT i still won chang and darius by ALOT. chang and darius, you guys still have a long way to go ! hahah anyhows, ah boy, ure not NOT ugly at all okayy ? dont think so lowly of yourself yea ? cos ure my ah boy ! :) then i came home and got hella scolding frm mom for 3 solid hours. arghh. screwed up. anyhows, thanks to MEL [bobo], KRIS [pumpkin bestie !], DARIUS [ojisan] and CHANG [ah boy] for making me feel so so so much better okayy ? and yes ojisan, ill try the pillow method later. hope it wakes the whole family up or sth. but my bro damn sweet lahh. whe

hahahah DARIUS san ! kan tan no nihongo wa wakarimasen ka ? hahaha bakero buta ! hahaha i dont suan you alot lohh. its because you dont know how to retaliate right ? so what is you can open pool table ? you cannot play pool to begin with !! hahah still practice late at night when no one is watchin right ? bet you looked damn stupid. hahaha told you im nice and i shall slowly teach you jap and cantonese lahh. hahah but it depends on how smart you are first. and i doubt you'll learn fast lahh. hahah KIDDING. and stop calling me suaning queen ! hahah its cos you not fast and witty enough to suan me back right ? anyhows, you keep saying ure gonna suan me right ? hahah happy thinkin of what to suan man. ive still got plenty to say but i shant show the evil side of me on my blog. heh :) and you stupid pig. type so fast, i cannot read other pple's convo cos your convo make my whole comp laggin !

joe's favourite song ! :)) the sky has lost it's colour the sun has turned to gray at least thts how it feels to me whenever ure away i crawl up in the corner as i watch the minutes pass each one brings me closer to the time when you'll be back ure coming back i cant take the distance i cant take the miles i cant take the time until the next time i see you smile i cant take the distance and im not ashamed tht i cant take a breath without saying your name i can brave a hurricane and still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down but i cant take the distance i still believe in feelings but sometimes ifeel too much i make believe ure close to me but it aint close enough not nearly close enough

growls. today is jus plain boring. everyone else is rotting at home. sighs. beginning to miss kris , mel , ping , ele , per . haven been out with ping, per and ele for a long long time! and per baby ! sorry i didnt reply your msg ytd okayy ? all of us mus go out tog soon alright ? sorry if ive been neglecting you guys :( my bro's frens are here and they're making a hell load of noise. so irritating. -makes a monkey face at them- na [[ heyy dear. haha happy tht i got to see ya online jus now ! you relax abt the fuckin woman thing okayy ? so what if you dont get to go to cairns ? hahah at least you and him are alright ? and his mom invited you along ! its tht thought tht counts, isnt it ? -hugs- you chill okayy ? you sounded really heated when you were telling me abt it. hahah there'll be plenty of other chances yea ? :)

if i had to live my life without you near me the days will be all empty the nights will seem so long with you i see forever, all so clearly i might have been in love before but it never felt this strong our dreams are young and we both know they'll take us where we wanna go hold me now, touch me now, i dont wanna live without you nothin's gonna change my love for you you want to know by now how much i love you one thing you can be sure of ill never ask for more than your love nothin's gonna change my love for you you ought to know how much i love you the world might change my whole life thru but nothin's gonna change my love for you ill be there for you if you shld leave me you dont have to change a thing i love you jus the way you are so come with me and share the view ill help you see forever thru hold me now, touch me now, i dont wanna live without you

yupp. went town ytd right. met gabriel with mel, then darius joined us. hahah then we went to play pool at cine. hahah oh man. darius CANT play pool. hahaha but not bad for a first timer lahh horr. can at least aim the ball correctly. but the funny part was tht his hand was shaking so badly tht he cant even hold the cue properly? hahah and mel said tht he had fits, which really looked like he did. hoho then wyn and da came and joined us for a while. mm, must say tht wyn's pool is not bad. hahah. and we only played 2 pathetic games and we left alr. growls. hahah darius..learn to play another time lahh okayy :) then at the bowling alley, saw ele, tanny and the rest. yea. haiya. things became so irritating aft tht -sneers-

finally! hahah thanks to my dearest girlfren ! :) thanks ping! :) anyhows, went town ytd with mel and some other pple. hmm, as usual didnt do much. was pretty pissed off ytd i guess. growls. then aft tuition, mel came to my house. hahah damn funny. mel and her pck sars song! hahahah damn corny. oh well. :)