// for if someone gets too close, the pins stick further in

>> i believed in u. i mux haf been a fool. all mie dreams were wif u <<

shall update fer e sake of charl. -big wide grinx- wells. guess todae was rather fun. jux like slacked at e corner durin dance wif ser, charl, edna and claud. laufed at our juniors. hahahas. weird i guess? hmm. ser, charl, edna and i were tukin abt sum sensitive topic in class todae. -grinx- like it was reallie rather gross? hahas. -shivers at e thought of it- [[charl]] heys gurlie thnks fer bein dere fer me alwaes kayy? im like gonna call ya soon ter pester u again. -smiles- [[ser]] sorrie fer vandalisin ur pinafore todae! -grinx-

woohoo. cheer prac was fun todae! -cheers- like needed sum entertain aft a few borin daes. like went ter e playgrnd and played. yupp. :) seriouslie would like ter consider thinkin tt wei is a himbo. hahahas. like e wae i reallie seriouslie think tt wyn is a himbo and a scady cat. like tan shu wei was screamin at edna todae and wyn was so afraid tt she actuallie refused ter leave e balcony wif me? hahas. [[wei]] -shakes head- im reallie nort sure of tt mans. like haf ter ask her personallie abt tt? :) yupp. had great fun wif ya todae thou? tk care himbo! :) [[edna]] cheer up dears. i understand wort ya feelin alritee? like im in no better state too! :) i'll will alwaes be here fer ya kayy. lurfe ya! -hugs real tightlie- [[ve]] haiyoh. dun worrie too muchie kayy. :) smile more gurlie! [[ping]] hahahas. NO LORR. e sweeper at taka belongs ter me lorr. he doesnt like u at all!! -grinx- wells..i will go look fer him again..before ya find ur wae dere! well..wanna thnk ya fe

sighs. didnt go sch todae. actuallie wanted ter feign sick but reallie ended up runnin a fever. todae is jux a badd badd dae! -groans- didnt studie much and walked arnd e house e whole dae. :( and out of boredom, ate alot alott :) yupp. cant wait ter go sch tom even thou i haven studied fer chinese test yet!! edna. sorrie fer nort goin fer dance kayy. :) miss ya deariex.

yupp. went ter e cc ter prac. like quite tired aft dat. mms. been a bore latelie. nuthin interestin happenin ter me or pple arnd me. quite bored. :| except fer tt stupid serene who is thinkin of sellin her 8250? -knocks her head- damm stupid. edna and i were thinkin of waes and methods fer her. alwaes like dis..helpin her ter think ter solve her matters. sheesh. wei! mux come down larx. worts wif bein afraid of bein called intruders when ure dere ter support us ritex? mux come down kayx!! anihows go read ur gbk! got a lil msg fer ya -grinx- wyn! u mux come down too kayx! like quite glad tt ure dere ter support us instead of dissin us. cox tts wort i infered frm ur blog. geex. sorrie! x) ronx ronx ronx! i will miss ya dearlie! read ur gbk yet? *yes i'll miss u, i'll miss ya<< lurve ya cutie! -smiles and hugs-

-smiles- todae was fun! wellies. went ter ve's house ter practice. yupp. m still thinkin abt wort ser, claud and i were laufin abt in e bus. hahahas. :) ronx. pls tk gd care manx. cant afford ter get sick lehs! goin ter denmark soon. :) -hugs- edna! its ok larx! im ok wif ya worts..and we r still as close as before. but seriouslie sumtimes u look quite sianx..so i ask ya lorx. didnt expect ya ter be irritated or worts. :) but all's well! -smiles- lurve ya gurl. reallie. thnks vern mommie! :D lurve ya too! got sumthin ter tell ya ser! like ur mommie scolded me fer callin ya? i was so frightened tt i said tt i dialed e wrong number! hahahas. wells. tom how? u comin wif us anots? :|

guess sumtimes, when sumthin is lost. its hard ter retrieve it and it wun be as gd as how things used ter be. sighs. a blank paper in mie hands and a pen in mie dreams i look out dere and it aint u face tt appears bein honest ive nv seen ur face all i knew was a feelin inside of mie chest i reached fer e stars, i looked fer ur embrace fer me u were e best but now u u showed me how hard a man's heart can be and i remember mie plans like e tears im droppin dey disappeared wif u u told me u were a shadow in mie heart u were life, ure joy it seemed tt i was dyin until i dicovered tt it aint animore i felt e most wonderful things fer u however u nv cared i reallie believed i tot u lurved me so i heard ur silence once more u slashed mie soul u showed ur claws i still remember e pain i felt and wort im still feelin i can hear echos of ur words and e songs i was singin everie step i took, everie move i made was fer u, until i felt ur

*smiles. m quite happie todae. haf quite alot of fun in sch i guess. jux dat sum stuff made me reallie disheatened. yupx. had a great tuk wif ronx todae. guess she is much happie. and im glad ter see her tt wae. :) like durin bio lessons, wyn and ser were gellin their hair in e toilet. provided lotsa entertainment ter those watchin dem gellin. hahahas. was practicallie laufin at their all screwed up hair. *grinx. serene! stupid gurl. i will call ya once i receive anithin kayx. yupx. i think she is nice larx but still rather bimbotic. -laufs- yupx. ronnies. hope most of e things r settled bie now. like when u told me abt wort happened, i was so totallie shocked! hahahas. like cant believe he actuallie did tt ter ya. -laufs loudlie- but guess he reallie seriouslie likes u alot. yah. but guess ure rather stuck ritex? both also equallie nice. but pls dun be sillie and do sillie stuff again! like u were no diff frm a mental patient yest! -grinx- anihows he wun be goin tom cox todae

hahahas. dun worrie i wun get in ur wae. ive tried mie best at least. so hope we dun get into each other's wae.

sheesh. ronx. can u pls wake up fer heaven's sake? ure no differnet frm a mad woman u noe tt? think uve completely lost it! here im tryin real hard ter knock facts into ur head and dere ure kiddin and laufin at everiethin. is this e wae u want things ter be? if nort..pls tuk ter dem properlie. jux like e normal ronx u r! sighs. i reallie wanna knock mie head against e wall orredi. if in e first place, u chose him u dun regret now! if u dun try how would e hell would u noe how things would turn out ter be? u can possiblie haf e best of two worlds ritex? pls pls. all i ask of u is ter stop takin tt useless pills and wake up. im sorrie. i still lurve ya ronx. -hugss- i wonder. i wonder if u reallie knew tt i see God in u and i wonder if u can see how much u mean ter me i noe u cannot read mie mind but i hope u feel mie vibe i think its time i let u noe tt i see e God in u ++

°manie times ive been told tt i shud go but dey dun noe wort we got babie den dey nort see e lurve in u but lurve i do and im stayin rite here ummm sweet sweet babie life is crazee but dere's one thing im sure of tt im ur ladie alwaes babie and i lurve u now and ever suga wishes dun change wort is real or how it feels in e bad time forever he is, he's mine all e time and we get bie wif our true love i bet would i ever find, mie sweet jux a true lurve, my sweet tt we come dis far together i bet so im here ter stae cox without u babie i cant go ani further°

sighs. borin dae. nuthin much ter do. -cheers- tt person is online again!! :) [ronx] oei u stupid gurl. :) i need ter tuk ter ya abt ben . think he is rather upset. but u enjoy urself wif him out dere kayx. -smiles- yupx. like im so happie fer ya? -cheers and swoons- congrats once again! :)

:) im a happie happie gurl now!! si ping is singin some dumbo songs beside me. hahahas. and she is screamin now. -cheers- yupx. im finallie alrite wif dem orredi. like took agaes manx. pingx is dancin some tribal dance. -laufs- like we r all goin ter promenade ltr together!! -swoons- ping is sucha nuisance!!! but i still lurve mie barbaric monkie alot! yupx.

woah. finallie ive got e mood ter update mie blog. :) im jux one hella happie gurl now. -smiles- thnks edna deariex fer bein dere fer me alwaes and givin me moral support and fer brightenin up mie dark daes. i reallie appreciate wort uve done alot alot alot .i jux lurve ya so much. and i want ya ter noe tt e frenship between both of us would last a life time. i reallie mean it kayx. and of cox i wanna thnk ping fer makin mie dae. thnks fer lettin me noe tt u still miss me alot..cox i reallie do miss ya alot. :) i still lurve ya alot. sighs. jux wanna thnk ya so much. and charl fer still bein our fren even thou its been tough on u. -hugs- glad ter haf ya as a fren ter pull us thru e hard times. :D like i didn go ter sch todae and i seem ter haf missed out on alot of things and stuff. :/ oh yahs. i wanna thnk huiling alot alot. fer talkin sense into. thnks alot babe. :) thnks fer remindin me abt listenin tom too!! -hugs- ilu! yah. think ive straightened out mie thinkins aft 2 weeks. and