// for if someone gets too close, the pins stick further in

it's not tht i can't live without you it's jus tht i don't even want to try every night i dream abt you ever since the day we said goodbye if i wasn't such a fool right now, i'd be holding you there's nothing tht i wldn't do baby, if i only knew the words to say, the road to take to find a way back to your heart what can i do, to get to you and find a way back to you heart i don't know how it got so crazy but i'll do anything to set things right cos your love is so amazing baby, you're the best thing in my life let me prove my love is real and make you feel the way i feel i promise i wld give the world if only you wld tell me i turn back time to make you mine and find a way back to your heart i beg and plead fall to my knees to find a way back to your heart these arms of mine are open wide frm now until the end of time you are my world, what can i do? this heart of mine belongs to you

on christmas's eve, spent the day at my aunt's house.. with all my cousins. they're seriously damn fun to play with. hahah, they look damn cute when playing ddr ! yea, then on christmas day, went to play pool with mel & edna.. saw some pple. haha, mel.. M !! :) haha, can't really remember what else we did. but we've been playing lots of pool. oh, met daniel ! my damn good friend. haven't seen each other in 8 yrs ! :) feels great to find a long lost friend. haha, crap. played pool with him. he's still as corny as ever.. but, i love my sister ! :)

YAY :D ele is so invading joe's blog :D cos its s t a g n a n t as in SERIOUSLY ! :| anyhow, i just got to see this bitch today ! :) DOUBLE YAY -cheers okay i love joe alot i'll invade a longer entry some other time :) cant wait for friday to bitch more dear :) LOVE YOU MUCH

five for fighting - sth abt you :) i don't know where to begin i don't know how to get out there to see you i don't know where to dig in i don't know how to get in there, to feel you it's been too long & i'm abt to be in time for me it's been too long & i'm in time baby there's sth abt you tht i can hold on to i'm going to hold on to tht baby there's sth abt you tht i can hold on to i'm going to hold on to tht i never thought i wld win i never thought much abt tht it's been a long time coming i never stopped to begin thinking abt the process it's been a long time coming i don't know where to begin i don't know how to get out there to see you it's been a long time coming i'm going to hold on to tht & i'm going to be there, be there, alright

ytd! was serene's bday ! :) happy birthday pretty ser ! :) she looked really good ytd. haha, went town with mel, edna & ser at first. met ser & na at long john silver's & walked arnd aft tht. took neoprints. haha, & continued walking arnd till arnd 6. supposed to be a surprise dinner for them at marche but i kinda ruined it.. haha, leaked so many secrets out. stupid me. hahah. so, had dinner at march with excliq & all. char, peisi, ling, ve, charl, yang, ping, na, ser & mel were all there. was pretty fun ! :) didn't eat much thou. told ping & charl alot of stuff in the toilet. haha. & i feel SO SO much better aft telling na & mel some stuff. esp mel. haha, her stories are getting very very interesting -winks :)

dear diary, today i saw a boy & i wondered if he noticed me he took my breath away dear diary, i can't get him off my mind & it scares me cos i've never felt this way no one in this world knows me better than you do so diary, i confide in you dear diary, today i saw tht boy as he walked by i thought he smiled at me & i wondered does he know what's in my heart i tried to smile, but i cld hardly breathe shld i tell him how i feel or wld tht scare him away diary, tell me what to do, pls tell me what to say dear diary, one touch of his hand now i can't wait to see tht boy again he smiled & i thought my heart cld fly diary, do you think tht we'll be more than friends i've got a feeling we'll be so much more than friends

joette chiew TSIN MUN: i don't know what you want. and apparently you went offline before i could even ask. i don't know how to get rid of the damned ad. sorry. i'll try finding something to overlap it okay?

night of my bday, went to sji's concert.. was pretty boring for me :l aft tht, went to meet mel & na in town. walked arnd a little. they're so SWEET ! they bought me sashimi & presents. including a 'me to you' happy birthday bear !! :)) came home aft tht, which was arnd 12 ? err, they stayed over again.. this time round, we all slept quite early cos we were damn tired !! haha, on sunday, went to church with mel, na, ser & her brother came a while aft tht. mel & i went walked arnd town, which was ultra boring.. except the fact tht i bought ppg jelly pops. haha, then we headed for gran's place for dinner. & yes, we finally bought 'loveactually' soundtrack ! :)

firstly, thanks to all who wished me happy birthday ! :) ytd was wonderful ! so fun ! edna, mel, eugene aka michelle, alvin aka GOOFY (inside joke !) & i went to escape. haha, so fun. funny incidents but i won't go into detail. yea, so aft escape, they wanted to eat, so went in search of food.. we jus kept walking & walking & walking. so tiring !! & yes eugene & alvin, TRUST. hahah. we finally got out of pasir ris & went to tampines to eat. i'm surprised at the amount of food guys can eat. they both shared 4 plates of food. crazy ! & i wasn't eating, so most of the time, i was watching them eat. edna eats normally, mel eats slowly & the funniest part is, the guys eat.. WEIRDLY. hahah, alvin kept staring at his food in his bowl, don't know what he was looking at also. hahah, so funny !! & eugene eats food in big big bites, no wonder he eats so much.. & edna bought me chocolate icecream as replacement of a birthday cake ! :) so aft

caught 'star runner' on friday ! vanness is so so cute aft cutting his hair ! haha, go watch tht movie ! highly recommended by me :) yea, watched with edna, jeremy & edna's cousins. was fun, but i had to leave cos i had to be home by 11. oh well, then on sunday, went to church with mel & edna. went to town together aft tht, watched 'love actually' ! what a cheesy nice movie ! haha, edna & i were swooning over tht actor while mel was swooning over tht young boy.. haha. both of them are damn funny & three of us are the SCBS ! haha. edna stayed over at my house tht day, but we slept damn early cos both of us were dog tired. on monday, edna went to rebond her hair, mel, charl & me went with her too.. spent arnd 3 hours there, her hair's so so long !! haha.. & she was enjoying herself laughing at tht zac guy. haha. mel, na & i went for a jog aft tht, quite a short one & we spent half the time sitting at the overhead bridge, talking. ha

kristine koh ! haha, hopefully u get to read this before u leave for aussie. i simply can't enter your blog. my brother's computer too ! anw, i'm using his computer again :) heh. oh, don't worry abt me forgetting abt u man, tht's a tough thing to do :) and, i'm finally going out today, i guess.. u won't be able to make it right ? better remember my birthday man ! i'm sure u will have lots of fun shopping there ! & i've got TONS & TONS to tell u ? so get back soon ! :D lala : are u sure it's too dark ?

argh. i'm stuck at home & i'm bored stiff. talked to charlene on the phone tht night. she hasn't changed a bit. still as sweet & funny as ever. i miss tht girl.. must go out with her soon ! & EDNA'S back ! :)) so happy, spoke to her last night, we talked so so so much :) never ending conversation :)) i'm so happpy she's back :) really. but haven't got to see her yet ! oh well, we can spend our birthdays together ! :) however, i'm pretty puzzled. where has krist gone to ? has she gone to aussie yet ? i can't seem to get in contact with her & she hasn't been calling or msging me. where is she ?! haha, plus, i'm quite upset with the way jemks is going. kinda breaking into grps again. always happens when the hols approach. but oh well. i'm jus really glad tht edna's back. lots to update her on ! -evil grin.

hi joe! hahah. i think ure eccentric!

on friday, aft krist's o's, mel, krist & i went down to far east, krist cut her hair ! her hairdresser is really good & her hair is really nice. hahahha, then we headed down to sicc to bowl ! mel & i played a game of pool. saw minzheng, &, unfortunately, he is still as lame as ever. hahah. on saturday, mel, krist, me & her cousin went to catch 'matrix revolution' !! tht show is GOOD & it was a premiere thing ? hahah, we saw cheryl fox (i'm like repeating whatever krist updated.. hahah) oh well, enjoyed ourselves. i wanna catch the movie again ! on sunday, went to church as usual & mel & i met up with krist. we headed to town for chicken rice AGAIN. we're like regulars there ? hahah. saw this damn gayish guy. yikes.. then we headed to wisma, saw the elite models !!! so pretty, the slovakia one ! & the black model is so so stylish ! the spore model has a great bod & great height but.. not so pretty face. hahah, we were tryin

got lots & lots to update. can't exactly remember the dates, but i caught 'the park' twice, once with mel, and another with mel, krist & friends. haha, caught 'uptown girl' with mel, krist & her friend. 'the park' wasn't tht bad, and 'uptown girls' was GOOD. haha. last day of sch was really fun, mel's shoe sole came off ! hahaha so hilarious. did lots of shopping in town with mel, krist, ele & louie. i can't exactly remember who went, but oh well. mel shopped with her plastic shoe !! so spastic. on sat, it was ele's birthday !! happy birthday ele ! :) me, mel & louie went to meet ele, annabelle & friends for dinner & headed to bowl :) was fun, & i gotta mention, of of their friends totally looks like terry ! gosh. louie got really heated during bowling cos this bunch of angmos beside us were being irritating. GRR. they spilled 7up all over our lane. louie & i almost slip & fell, not to mention,

at last i find time to blog. haha. days aft exams are so fun :) on thursday, went to east coast for krist's birthday chalet thing. went to town with mel before going there & bought krist's present. then we headed down to east coast. spent most of our time at the beach & ping came. haha it was so fun.. tried stripping ping again. haha & silly them kept screaming. there was quite a crowd aft it got later.. nat & the dance girls came, plus other of krist's friends. then ping left, so we started telling ghost stories which aren't really ghost stories. quite stupid. so.. we went back to bbq, & mel insisted on barbecuing chickens, which of cos, krist & i simply refused to eat them. instead, turnip had to eat all of her chickens. haha, so fun teasing them.. grins. aft a while, they all left & krist's fren came. mel kinda got crazy & came up with this 'pillow patrol' thing. so hilarious. it was pretty late alr & we were all laughi

today was the last paper ! :)) grins at ele & ping. haha bet you guys are jealous. so aft sch, we went to far east. every shop was like closed ? but oh well, we all plucked our eyebrows. look horrid.. hahah then bel joined us. tht girl's hella funny pig. toook lotsa lotsa neoprints. quite nice thou :) took two with ping, ele, mel & bel. & one with jus me, mel & bel. the captions are corny. so aft tht, ele & ping went home to study. hahah poor thing :) wanted to go to cine to bowl, but ended up shopping for pull overs. went to pacific plaza, then went to mango. tried clothes while bel was busy complaining tht she was damn hungry. then aft trying clothes, i came out first & tht retarded bel was grooving to sean paul's song. she was rapping.. looked so funny ! hahah, but cute lahh.. then we finally ate at taka & headed for cine to bowl. oh well, it's a fact tht i'm not bad at bowling. mel's not bad & bel has style mannn. krist joined us

ytd was kinda bad :( but glad things are fine now ! :) yea, went shopping with ping at thomson plaza instead of studying with the rest. had lotsa fun.. especially, when bullying siping. hahah :) came home pretty early and talked to grasshead for quite a while, she's damn funny man. haha. mel & ele : hey girls -hugs both yoou tight. :)

had history today. elizabeth was sneezing her nose away during the paper. so loud !! hahah. & the paper was quite tough ! then, we had english paper 2. our invigilator is damn irritating !!!! grrr. right ele ? oh man. at mel's house again. took cab back and siping had a very interesting conversation with the taxi driver. she was flirting with the taxi driver !! hahah siping jus screamed at me. but she really talked alot to him, like she totally enjoyed talking to tht old man ? haha. he was talking abt lesbians & discriminating them & siping looked constipated. hahah.. oh well. he's probably jus barking up the wrong tree. & mel got to see her beloved darling ! :) her new eyecandy.. too bad she didn't reply mel when she msged her. cheer up mel ! -hugs j emks : love you girls lots. like totally hahah. :)))

today's chinese was horrendous. anw, ytd, our dedication was read out ! haha & annabelle was on air. how retarded, her dedication. hahah. we were like all screaming in the canteen when we heard it. annabelle, you owe us a treat ! :) oh well, am at mel's house again. she's torturing me, as usual. doing facial for me. we shld be studying !! & mel, she got rejected by a girl !! tht girl's bx. try figuring tht out :) oh man, i love throwing grass at siping !! haha her reaction damn funny man ! ok, im retarded, i know. but cant blame me. especially when ping's doesn't wear her shorts to sch ! ok, better get on with work ! jill : hey babe. i promise i won't say a word. -locks pinkie with you mel : your painting is GREAT !! like fabulous ?!! for me right ? ahhahahah right. 'rembrandt'. :) nice drawing. really jemks : study girls. then we can get to party sooner ! :)

the song tht makes all of us scream :) a hundred days had made me older since the last time tht i saw your pretty face a thousand lights had made me colder & i dont think i can look at this the same but all the miles had separate they disappeared now when i'm dreaming of your face i’m here without you baby but ure still on my lonely mind i think abt you baby & i dream abt you all the time i’m here without you baby but ure still with me in my dreams and tonight it’s only you and me the miles just keep rolling as the people even wave to say hello i hear this life is overrated but i hope it gets better as we go i’m here without you baby but ure still on my lonely mind i think abt you baby & i dream abt you all the time i’m here without you baby but ure still with me in my dreams and tonight girl, it’s only you and me everything i know, & anywhere I go its gets hard but it won’t take away my love & when th

this really dumb song tht LINWEI came up with for me joy to the world, porkbun is dead i barbecued her head what happened to her body i flushed it down the potty what happened to her clothes i stuff it in her clothes forever & ever, porkbun i gone hahah ele and i kept substituting 'porkbun' to 'peanut' ! :) and. i really love 3purity :) and i like the sec 3 level.

at mel's house now, with mel and louie. hahah supposed to be studyin. oh well.. did lotsa stupid things. such as 'waxing' each other's hair ? hahahah hilarious !! louie looked funny, mel cldnt make it, and me, TERRIBLE. hahahah. the washing off the wax was FUNNY.. hahah all of us looked like shit. my pants were like so wet, esp in the middle. then we blew our hair dry. exams starting tom, and i dont feel confidant ! i must do well, to earn incentives frm my mother, which can go up to a 1000 bucks :) so studying starts. talked to ve on the phone a week ago, i think. i miss her so much :( but oh well, enjoyed talkin to her. caught up with lotsa stuff. i realised sth, i miss my old friends :( hahah poor louie, have to hear me go on and on abt how much i miss my previous friends. alright. off to study. JEMKS : love you guys mel wong : hey dear. you must keep in contact with all of us k ? love ya lots :) make dad look at me think back and talk to me did i

today's sch was DAMN hilarious man. durin recess, mel forgot to wear her name tag. then this prefect came over with musking tape to write down mel's name. hahah we all told the prefect tht her name was bobo !! and she had to walk arnd sch with tht silly tag on her pinafore !! BOBO. then had bio aft recess.. mel and i were playing like crazy.. we were throwing leaves in front. -looks at mel and laughs really really loudly ! mel, she found out tht we threw stuff at her but your apology sounded damn lame and she fell for it ? haha in the afternoon, we had maths lessons while having english oral. then i was sitting with ping, with pebbles and muthu sitting in front of us. hahah i was bored STIFF. ping took lotsa photos of my book and her stupid stuff.. then we decided to take photos of our new maths cum form teacher. god, she's hilarious. hahahahah we tried taking close up shots of her.. pebbles was very entertained. we quite laughin like mad. haha then in order to get her clo

Starting time: 4.25 pm 1. what is your full name: chiew tsin mun joette 2. nicknames : porkbun ?! err. joe 3. bday : 6dec1987 4. age: 15+ 5. sex: female 6. social security: hurr 7. whre were you born? spore 8. where you live now: bishan 9. zodiac sign: saggitarius 10. what grade are you in and what school do you attend : st nicks sec3 11. what are your parents names: alan & cindy 12. siblings and their ages : jordan (14) & joel (13) 13. do you get along: yes.. i love my bros 14. pets: used to 15. righty or Lefty: righty 16. bedtime: mm, definitely pass 10 17. email : joette_chiew@hotmail.com 18. hair color : black 19. eye color: err. black 20. contacts or glasses : none 21. piercings : only ear 22. tattoos : no 23. scars : duhh 24. height : 162cm 25. do you wear any rings : nopee 26. what shoes do you wear : converse ! 27. drove a car : err. no 28. met someone new : recently, no 29. done laundry : yea 30. cried : DUHH 31. wore a skirt: duhh 32

haha jus came back to mel's house. in the afternoon, louisa, me and mel went to her playgrnd near by and we played cards. these bunch of irritating guys were playing soccer.. not irritating only lahh. then aft tht, krist joined us. louisa and krist were swinging then they wanted to pass their phones to me while they were swinging, i caught louisa's phone successfully.. but krist's phone hit my head and bounced off. hahah damn painful man. yea.. then we walked back and went to her another house next door to swim and barbecue. not irritating only. they kept swingin pple into the pool.. jus cos im the oldest doesnt mean im the best to bully right !! yea.. then we ate and played cards in the middle of the carpark. hahah very fun ! love to hear mel scream when she doesnt get the thinnest pack ! so now.. its jus left with louisa, mel and me ! krist went off alr. today was great ! :) once again.. happy birthday dear :D

happy birthday MEL ! :) haha its tht silly girl's birthday today. im alr at her house. waiting for the rest to come. BUT im super disappointed cos ele and ping cannot make it :( so it'll be only me, krist, louie and mel ? so pathetic. but tht means, we'll have a bigger share of the two chocolate cakes. met mel quite early and she went to choose her cakes. haha we were playing scissors paper stone in sweet secrets to decide what cake to buy ? ended up buying chocolate tiramisu and another chocolate cake. but its raining.. which means we cant swim ! :(

ytd was mel's birthday eve, louisa, mel and i went to town cos they decided not to go for the biotech talk. without askin me first. haha but oh well.. then krist joined us. shopped arnd and arnd 6.30pm, mel treated all of us to mache ! :) it was kinda like her birthday dinner thing. had lotsa fun.. ping joined us later with some of her frens. it was a great day ! :) very fun. laughed alot even thou krist was feeling really down. she like teared so many times, felt so bad for her :( krist : hey dear. dont be so upset ok ? cheer up ! ill be seeing you later. tht should cheer you up ! :) ilu

dont speak, seal your lips. pls dont say a word maybe i wont remember the words i have not heard i see tht ure in love i know its not with me but i dont want the truth to haunt my memory how is it now tht i can tell you 'i love you' how is only now tht its too late what can i do, the love tht we had is torn in two so you take the smiles frm all of our yrs and ill take the tears now i realise ure not mine but im hopin the pain will ease in time thou ure leaving, i wont say goodbye cos i know ure here with me inside

before i forget.. happy birthday minzheng ! and ure still greedy.. whats with you saying tht ure great ?! haha. today's pe lesson was damn fun ! haha played handball. ele, stacey, ping and i were guarding the cone and we were screamin like crazy. stacey was damn funny, 'it was my leg !' haha right.. had lotsa fun :) but we are really lousy at defending. right ele ? haha so lousy. today was a drowsy day, lynette was slpin most of the time, was talkin to her when i realised tht she was slpin.. hahah so dumb. aft sch, krist, mel and i went to j8 again. tried to feed krist with noodles but ended up spilling them onto my arm. so malu ! haha then we went to popular for assessment book shoppin spree. haha bought this really very nice series of guide books.. came home and slept and did some studyin. i missed 'the cramp twins' ! alright. off to watch tv now :)

had this really hilarious skit this mornin in sch. was laughing my head off at their acting. hahah :D ele and ping were laughin really badly too ! oh, we finally changed seats. no more sitting in the front ! haha im sitting at the back again ! :) so happy, and chow's like sitting diagonally, we're not gonna talk alot only. hahah and lynette's sitting beside me, im so sure she's gonna bully me all the time. grrr. haha. forgot to bring my twelfth night for miss jeya's lessons today and the whole class didnt do their work except for two, so we were chased outta class, at the staircase, me and ping kept talkin and miss jeya saw, so she called us both into class and made us sit on the floor beside her. when i told her tht i didnt bring my text, she made me do an essay on 'time and fate' first, then she changed her mind and made me do an essay ony 'how i intend to do well for twelfth night for the exams' :| ended up writing crap. when i showed her the pape

mel stayed over at my house last night. was really fun :D played a few rounds of 'speed' and played 'crash bandicoot' the whole night. haha and we talked alot before we finally decided to slp, which was arnd 4 plus. love talkin to tht girl. made me feel so much better aft pouring everything out. mel, if ure reading this, i love you ! :) woke up really late today, aft sending mel out of the house at arnd 8 cos she had to go to church. watched 'harriet the spy' on tv. so sad, and i started crying in front of the tv. stupid me but it was kinda touching. oh well, really pist off with my mom. she's not home again and she keeps nagging at me for going out. grr.. but ive been home this whole week ! going over to gran's house later. and sch starts tom.. but im kinda lookin forward to it. hahahaha, haven worn the sch uniform for a week. haha

at mel's house now. haha she keeps playin with my hair and designed stupid hairstyles.. AND mel's bra keeps droppin and ive gotta help her pull up the back ?!! hahahahah. mel exclaims tht she's not irritating.. right. and mel bought me this really nice disney princess coloring book. its really pretty. lotsa ariel pictures inside !:) but i haven started on coloring it yet. god, mel is damn childish, she jus added perfume to our melted choc icecream and the icecream turned darker.. accordin to mel. and she wants to add whitening toner to the mixture. gross ! teaching mel cheer dance steps now. hahahah she's so funny.

left the party pretty early. arnd 8 plus. kenneth's mom sent out us. what a nice lady ! she was like encouraging us to mix arnd more with the opposite sex. haha cool mom. she's really nice. yupp.. went to catch 'turn left turn right' with mel. was a pretty good show thou its kinda irritating, cos the two of them never get to meet up with each other ? haha was so so so irritated ! got home arnd 11.30pm and everyone jus got home. mom went shopping and bros jus came home frm soccer. anw, kris, sorry.. watched the show without you ! haha but we had no other options. ill watch it with you again ? :D mel : hey dear. thanks for today. well, at least i know tht NERDS arent tht bad :) and thanks for being there for me, aft what we read in kenneth's house. grr. and im sure u enjoyed the party right ! :) you better do. louie : hahah jus talked to you online. and ure on your way back. haha im waiting for your msg ! :) ele : hey baby bitch. sorry, i didnt reply your ms

at kenneth's house now. jus chased all of them outta the room so tht i can use the comp. hahah. ytd, went to swissotel for lunch with the cheerleaders. cheerleaders' lunch. was pretty fun. the food was sumptious :) great buffet. haha aft tht, went to ikea with ping and kris. folded 199 hearts. so pretty :) stayed up to quite late ytd, talked to mel for REALLY long. hahah till arnd 3.30 in the morning. so, at kenneth's house now. played 'speed' with mel and yewei, so fun, was like screamin away. but still, i won them. hahah :) played daitee with kenneth and mel and i won money ! they all lost money ! :)) oh man. goin to watch movie later. haha jus chased yewei outt the room again.

today was kinda ok i guess. went to eat shanghai food. nice :) then shopped arnd with mom and aunts, bought shoes and this shopkeeper, really BIG, is so cute. hahah he's kinda lame. oh well, delightful fellow. aft tht, went for tennis (dont look so shocked. i can play tennis alright !) and now, watchin tv, drinkin sparkling juice. hahah its nice ok. my aunt was laughin at me cos i do not take wine. hahah. im a a good girl :) -winks. but came home and called her, got bloody pist off. hate it when pple take me for granted. yikes. luckily kris called. hell, love tht girl. brightened up my night. hahah althou she's not really feeling well. :( kris : hey dear. u cheer up alright ? ill call u back soon. thanks for calling me k ? was really pist. i thought no one cared abt the clique anymore. ARGH. anw, im sure u can sort things out with him. anytime u need me, im jus a phone call away. :) love ya lots dear. you : hate it when u take me for granted and take the clique for grant

anw, kenneth's having a party on friday. anyone interested to come with me ? the nerds ? msg me alright ? i miss the nerd family :(

ok. this is gonna be a real long entry. for once. haha on sat, went to jillian's bday party. it was pretty alright i guess. felt kinda outta place, since all of them were sec twos. so most of the time, it was jus mel, kris, ping, ele and i who were jus talkin among ourselves and as usual, doing stupid stuff. hahah it was pretty hillarious when we played truth or dare. pretty stupid dares tht they came up with :D but jill's house is so pretty !! oh well. then on sunday, when for granny's bday dinner at mandarin hotel (is tht it ? its the building beside suntec) had pretty good stuff. like shark's fin (melissa insists tht its bad for the ocean ?!), abalone, and bird nests. stupid me thought the dish was some yucky almond desert and left it on the table, when i realised tht it was bird nest when my mom told me AFTER the dinner. hahah. the adults were like singing throughout the entire dinner. pretty irritating but they're a bunch of really childish adults, cracking j

ure the kind of fren who always bends when im broken like remember when, you took my heart and put it back together again ive been wasting time with clueless guys but now it's over let me tell you why im thru ive met someone new who's just like you ure it, ure the ultimate its automatic im sure of it no lie, so dont even try to tell me tht your not the guy cos ive been waiting all my life for someone just like you but ure it, ure the ultimate you ure the kind of guy whose hands in mine send shivers up and down my spine you took my heart and put it back together again ure the kind of guy tht blows my mind but now its my turn its been right in front of me everything i need why didnt i see ure it, ure the ultimate its automatic im sure of it no lie, so dont even try to tell me tht your not the guy cos ive been waiting all my life for someone just like you but ure it, ure the ultimate you ure it, ure the ultimate yooouuuu!

ytd was pretty ok i guess. went to cine with mel then met up with darius, fish and his fren. mm, played pool and i lost to mel :( which is seldom. hahaha oh well, then we caught freaky friday for the third time. haha its really funny. and mel and i are addicted to the song 'ultimate'. i kept listenin to the song on darius' mp3. really nice song. yupp.. then we parted at heeren cos i was really getting irritated. grr. sheesh. today's a sch declared hol and ive got no idea what to do.. kris jus msged me abt what we're gonna do today. mm, gonna call her now.

hahah someone jus came over to chows comp and typed "i am chow. and i am a duck" -scratches head- wonders who the person is. hahah :) anw, gonna perform today. pretty excited abt it. had cheer prac ytd, was quite fun. felt so dumb tht i cldnt get the cat walkin part right. had to do so many times jus to get the right direction. sheesh i think miss nai is so pretty !! :D her hair's really nice too great man, this person jus totally spoilt my entire morning. irritant !! feel like squashing her face. some pple shld jus learn to shut up

nothin much to blog abt.. hmm. jus tht im really excited abt friday. hahah performin at westin hotel :) and im happy cos my bitch is happy today ! :)) anw, this really irritatin person fell down today. hahahah jus right behind me and kris. hahaha so funny. ill never forget today.. :)) -winks at kris- kris.. you get what i mean right ? :D

in the comp lab again :) hahah louisa cheong xinni.. your bloody guestbook is really irritating. its so laggy tht it hung my computer and all the work tht ive done are all gone ?! grr.. had to redo my work ok ! haha anyhows, my name is nice what. i dont get irritated when you call me tht ! had recess jus now, and it was funny, as usual. si pig is so FUNNY !! hahah -tries to lift up your pinafore- hahahah :D

haha ive officially watched centerstage 28 times ! haha startin to think im crazy. mm, but i jus dont get sick of tht show. ive watched it so many times tht i can actually remember all the lines ? haha :) came back pretty early today. went j8 with kris for a short while. these few mayflower girls in the bus were being bitches. grrr. anyhows, LOUIE quit calling me pong hair okayy ! urs looks more like the pong one. hahah SMALL GIRL ! :D and dont always mess my hair up in sch. i still cant believe tht i missed tht number by ONE digit. and so did you right ? yours is really wasted. it was a nice number. oh, i HAVE TO mention how retarded ching yi looked in the bus when she was like pressing her face against the window. hahaha i was laughin my ass off ? :D alright. off to study chinese :)

alright. sorry pig. decided to change my template back to the old one cos the new one is so not me !! :) sorry babe ! make me a new one ? -hints- hahah oh well. haha went j8 with kris, ele, sam and annabelle ytd. pretty fun. and those guys were twits. as usual. and annabelle, dont deny it. you lost 5 bucks to joette ! haha i gave you so many chances and yet you refused to change your bet. hahah ! :) anyhows, miss chua jus walked here. better go do my modality now

yo baby. here's your new template. hope you like it yeah. -hugs- bet you're falling asleep now or something. take care alrights. -hugs-

i see the way he treats you i feel the tears you cried, and it makes sad, and it makes mad, there's nothing i can do baby. cos your lover is my best friend, and i guess tht's where the story ends so ive gotta try, to keep it inside. you will never be, never be mine but, if i was the one who was loving you, baby. the only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy. and if i was by your side, you'll never know one lonely night and if it was my arms you were running to, id give you love in these arms of mine. if i was the one in your life. if i could have just one wish, id wish tht you were mine, i would hold you near, kiss away those tears. id be so good to you baby. you're the one i want next to me, but i guess that's just not meant to be. he's there in your life, and he's sharing your nights, it'll never be, never be right. i wanna reach out and view beside me, right here beside me, babe. take

dont think tht ill get over you dont know if i can make it thru my darkest days without you in my life and i dont think tht i can face the pain ill never see your face again i close my eyes and wonder when will it ever end i had to watch you fade away

haii. im really sorry for whatever ive said. its not tht i dont wanna tell you or anythin. its jus cos i really dont know what im feeling either and neither do i know whats goin on with you. and i doubt you wanna tell me abt it now. sighs. you jus chill and msg me once ure ok. i really dont want anythin to affect whatever we had ok ? :( its not tht i dont trust your or anythin k ? i really do treat u as a very good fren. really sheesh. things have jus been bad bad bad. i really dont know whats goin on. everythin's so confusing ? shldnt have said anythin. me and my big fat mouth.

im hungry :| mm, goin to meet mel later ! -looks all excited- heh have no idea what we are gonna do anyways but im lookin forward to going out at least :)

lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea to the open arms of the sea lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me ill be coming home, wait for me oh, my love, my darling ive hungered for your touch a long, lonely time and time goes by so slowly and time can do so much are you still mine? i need your love, i oh i need your love god speed your love to me

went to cine today at arnd 7.45pm i think. went to meet ping first at cheers, then went up to 'funkypool' hahah what a dumb name to meet chang and darius, hahah i beat both of them at pool !! :) yea, then ping left, so we went to eat and waited for mel to come join us aft her dinner at hyatt. then she came and we all went to the bowling alley, to bowl of cos, with darius's fren too. okayy, i lost to darius but i won the rest. come on lohh, i only lost darius by 20 points ! unfair. hmph. cosmic bowlin is very fun but i jus dont like the techno music. hahah yupp, then aft tht mel, her bro and i cabbed home and i reached home at arnd 11pm? surprised my mom didnt say anythin. haha i guess it was pretty fun, althou it was jus a short while out ?

mm, thurs we went to suntec at arnd 7 plus i think ? went with mel, kris, chang, santos, gab, charsiew pao. haha yea. before tht we were at paragon rooftop playin truth or dare. hahah pretty silly. then we headed down to suntec cos i needed to meet my mom. then darius joined us. haha realised tht my ah boy gets along very well with my ah ma. haha mm, quite alot of unpleasant things happened aft tht but oh wells, shant talk abt them. mm, we jus slacked arnd suntec convention hall cos of my mom :| yea, aft quite a while, we went to look for food. by then it was like pretty late. mm, then left with darius, mel, chang, me and mom. we went to kenny rogers, but we were late and the food was pathetic, so we headed for tony roma's but it was closing and my mom didnt want to eat there, so we left and finally ate at crystal jade, my mom's treat. WOAH. so damn hungry. mm, i think i ate alot but heard frm darius tht chang didnt really dare to eat cos i ordered lotsa fried food. hahah SORRY

hey... hahax.. yepxx bloggin fer u now.. since u can't go online yea? hahax.. hmm rotting @ home now rite ahah ;x.. same here.. ;P.. hur hur.. *jealous* u getting cookies and .. i not bleahh >.<.. ahhax eeehhh!!! she juz sms.. i getting cookies too!! yayy ;x.. ahhax.. yummy yummy.. ;x.. ahhax.. orh well.. u take care yea? i noe lotsa things are happening to u now.. buden.. juz noe tt u always haf yr gd frenx around u ... esp me!! ;x.. so dun keep everyting to yrself.. will help to share burden wif ya kae? and DUN EVER go cut yrself.. its kinda dumb n stupid.. hurting yrself.. wun get u anywhere to solving the problems.. kae! =].. *smile*=].. always always remember.. tt frenx are put there for a reason so.. u can vent yr anger on me or watever anyting!! =].. so long yr stress and upset-ness all ~ everyting ~ gone.. tts wat i wan see kae!! cheer up yea!! =].. there is will always be God watching over us in everyting tt we do.. he will help us yea? i will remember ya in my praye

this song means loads to me :( lately uve been askin me if all my words are true dont you know, ill do anythin for you sometimes i haven been good to you sometimes i made you cry and im sorry for everythin but i promise you girl, i promise you this when the blue night is over my face on the dark side of the world in space when im all alone with the stars above you are the one i love and there is no need to worry girl my heart is sealed for you and no one's gonna take it away cos i promise you girl, i promise you this when the blue night is over my face on the dark side of the world in space when im all alone with the stars above you are the one i love your voice is calling to me in my dreams and my love is stronger than it has ever been

today was fun ! :) haha met mel, darius, fish and big butt at cine today. mm, i was late as usual. sorry mel and darius for waiting for me ! -grins- but its worth the wait right ? hahah oh well, then we headed to play pool but before tht, went to say hi to gabriel, chang and santos. then we all went to play pool tog ! haha i won gabriel ! and i lost to santos, haiya, thts pretty expected. and tht santos damn funny man ! hahah he and his stupid farting. hahaha :| anyhows, we were chased out cos of GABRIEL cos he's underage. mm, i am too lahh but at least im still born in the yr 1987 right ? hahah alrights. then aft tht we went to bowl. was playin with big butt, fish and darius. and yet, my score was the highest -grins- the guys, so sia sway. hahah then we changed lanes. yupp..and darius actually striked in three times ?! haha tht was definitely sheer luck. hoho. then johnathon and some other guy workin there were bettin on whether i cld strike or spare of anythin and johnathon won

slept at arnd 6am ytd ! hahah was talkin to mel and darius on the phone but darius, tht lazy pig, blacked out so fast. so mel and i were talkin abt him. hah so funny. too bad darius, you missed out on all the juicy news. mm, i think mel's still sleepin. we were talkin abt almost every crap thing we can find to talk abt :) first time mel didnt sound tired. oh well, im stuck at home AGAIN. growls. anyhows, darius recorded this damn dumb song. hahah i shall try to post it up here. hoho damn funny !

i never had anybody treat me quite like you do i love your honesty we met, we clicked, we shared a vibe tht was true and it was plain to see i did not want to face the truth you said you had a girl and you were so in love with her and nobody else what do you do when someone dont love you they show you all their feelings like ure a fren like ure a fren what do you say when things dont go your way and ure frozen in a picture like ure a fren like ure a fren i dont want to be your fren, no way when i was trapped i was dependant on you and there was no escape i was a fool to think tht i was the one i let you criticise everythin i done, nono but i know i cant have you and i cant live without you but i guess i cant have it my way for the loving ure not feeling my heart is still breathing boy, how can you treat me this way ? jus like a fren. no more friends

the warmth in your smile is the warmth tht i desire cos its cold and lonely in this place and i need to get close to the flames in a fire and lose myself in ytd it's gonna be a long long long time till i can be with you again and see your smile its gonna be a long long long time till i hold you in my arms all thru the night it's gonna be a long long time looking outside and i feel so uninspired and it rains all thru this lonely night im losing my mind and my soul is feeling tired cos girl you are my guiding light girl ive been missing you, i never thought id feel this way all the feelings i have inside grow stronger everyday girl i want you to know tht ill never let you go ure the only one tht i really want and there's one thing uve gotta know listen girl i need you there's nothing i can do abt it and i wanna hold you and show you how much you mean to me dont you know tht i want you in my life

what a boring day ! :| slept at 5 plus last night all thanks to mel and darius. growls. i was like waiting and waiting for dont know what too. -pouts- anyhows, na, dont be so upset over him alright ? im sure you'll be able to get over him soon. its very tough, i know, but if you keep telling yourself tht he is jus a very very very good fren of yours and tht you dont have any more feelings for him, im sure you'll sooner or later lose tht feeling for him. no matter what, your sista will ALWAYS be here for you whenever you need me okayy ? -hugs ya tight- i guess he is really being selfish cos probably he still likes you too but he cant show it so the only thing he can do is to make sure tht he doesnt lose you as a fren. mm, am i talkin nonsense. whatever it is, im sure with such good looks uve got, you'll be able to find plenty of other guys when you come back to spore okayy ? -grins- of cos my sista is pretty right ? :) so you jus chill and be your happy self okayy ?

to you . i really hope you know what you are doing. when i tried talking to you online, you simply refuse to tell me the reason. a million sorries will not solve the matter. i really wanna know your reason for doing all these silly stuff, promising me you wont do it again will not settle whatever i feel abt the whole issue. if you really still treasure me and him as frens, i want you to explain everythn to us. okayy, at least me. cos whatever uve done is too much and its so hard to imagine tht i gave you so many chances to tell me the truth but you simply refuse to and keep denying your actions. blockin your good fren's sms isnt sth tht i think i can forgive i were him. and till now, i still have no idea what the reason is. i really dont feel like calling you cos i know tht you wld either change the topic again or refuse to tell me the truth. msg me once you are ready to tell the truth. i cant be bothered to ask anymore and dont keep sayin im angry cos im not. and i wld appreciate

oh jus read mel's blog and read abt the converse and sketchers thing. damn funny ! haha cos mel bought this really nice blue sketchers blue shoe while kris bought this red, white converse shoes and i bought this purple, white converse shoes. ahaha then i kris and i realised tht mel walks especially slowly, so we came up with the conclusion tht converse shoes are the best cos we wont lag behind like sketchers. ahah you guys shld really check out mel's speed. so dont buy sketchers ! hahaha lame. so wells :) anyhows, ping. sorry for not joining you ytd dear. i was so busy playing pool myself. mm, im sorry if not everythin turned out well for you. im gonna call you up one of these days and have a real long chat with you okayy ? i promise ! -pinkie promise- yea. must tell me abt tht girl you saw in monks alright ? -grins-

yea. went to play pool with mel, darius, gab, weichang and the rest. hahah darius is improving but i still dont think he can win me. haha -sniggers- however, realised tht weichang can play well ! :) duhh, cos he's my ah boy right ? haha and santos can really play well. kept asking mel and i to bend bend and bend. hoho. aft tht went bowling. gab, darius and chang kept suanin me like shit. i gutter ball they ALL clap so loudly. BUT i still won chang and darius by ALOT. chang and darius, you guys still have a long way to go ! hahah anyhows, ah boy, ure not NOT ugly at all okayy ? dont think so lowly of yourself yea ? cos ure my ah boy ! :) then i came home and got hella scolding frm mom for 3 solid hours. arghh. screwed up. anyhows, thanks to MEL [bobo], KRIS [pumpkin bestie !], DARIUS [ojisan] and CHANG [ah boy] for making me feel so so so much better okayy ? and yes ojisan, ill try the pillow method later. hope it wakes the whole family up or sth. but my bro damn sweet lahh. whe

hahahah DARIUS san ! kan tan no nihongo wa wakarimasen ka ? hahaha bakero buta ! hahaha i dont suan you alot lohh. its because you dont know how to retaliate right ? so what is you can open pool table ? you cannot play pool to begin with !! hahah still practice late at night when no one is watchin right ? bet you looked damn stupid. hahaha told you im nice and i shall slowly teach you jap and cantonese lahh. hahah but it depends on how smart you are first. and i doubt you'll learn fast lahh. hahah KIDDING. and stop calling me suaning queen ! hahah its cos you not fast and witty enough to suan me back right ? anyhows, you keep saying ure gonna suan me right ? hahah happy thinkin of what to suan man. ive still got plenty to say but i shant show the evil side of me on my blog. heh :) and you stupid pig. type so fast, i cannot read other pple's convo cos your convo make my whole comp laggin !

joe's favourite song ! :)) the sky has lost it's colour the sun has turned to gray at least thts how it feels to me whenever ure away i crawl up in the corner as i watch the minutes pass each one brings me closer to the time when you'll be back ure coming back i cant take the distance i cant take the miles i cant take the time until the next time i see you smile i cant take the distance and im not ashamed tht i cant take a breath without saying your name i can brave a hurricane and still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down but i cant take the distance i still believe in feelings but sometimes ifeel too much i make believe ure close to me but it aint close enough not nearly close enough

growls. today is jus plain boring. everyone else is rotting at home. sighs. beginning to miss kris , mel , ping , ele , per . haven been out with ping, per and ele for a long long time! and per baby ! sorry i didnt reply your msg ytd okayy ? all of us mus go out tog soon alright ? sorry if ive been neglecting you guys :( my bro's frens are here and they're making a hell load of noise. so irritating. -makes a monkey face at them- na [[ heyy dear. haha happy tht i got to see ya online jus now ! you relax abt the fuckin woman thing okayy ? so what if you dont get to go to cairns ? hahah at least you and him are alright ? and his mom invited you along ! its tht thought tht counts, isnt it ? -hugs- you chill okayy ? you sounded really heated when you were telling me abt it. hahah there'll be plenty of other chances yea ? :)

if i had to live my life without you near me the days will be all empty the nights will seem so long with you i see forever, all so clearly i might have been in love before but it never felt this strong our dreams are young and we both know they'll take us where we wanna go hold me now, touch me now, i dont wanna live without you nothin's gonna change my love for you you want to know by now how much i love you one thing you can be sure of ill never ask for more than your love nothin's gonna change my love for you you ought to know how much i love you the world might change my whole life thru but nothin's gonna change my love for you ill be there for you if you shld leave me you dont have to change a thing i love you jus the way you are so come with me and share the view ill help you see forever thru hold me now, touch me now, i dont wanna live without you

yupp. went town ytd right. met gabriel with mel, then darius joined us. hahah then we went to play pool at cine. hahah oh man. darius CANT play pool. hahaha but not bad for a first timer lahh horr. can at least aim the ball correctly. but the funny part was tht his hand was shaking so badly tht he cant even hold the cue properly? hahah and mel said tht he had fits, which really looked like he did. hoho then wyn and da came and joined us for a while. mm, must say tht wyn's pool is not bad. hahah. and we only played 2 pathetic games and we left alr. growls. hahah darius..learn to play another time lahh okayy :) then at the bowling alley, saw ele, tanny and the rest. yea. haiya. things became so irritating aft tht -sneers-

finally! hahah thanks to my dearest girlfren ! :) thanks ping! :) anyhows, went town ytd with mel and some other pple. hmm, as usual didnt do much. was pretty pissed off ytd i guess. growls. then aft tuition, mel came to my house. hahah damn funny. mel and her pck sars song! hahahah damn corny. oh well. :)

oh shit. my blog is like so screwed! oh wells, ill tidy up this mess as soon as i come back lahh. for now, im gonna go meet so freda, so ill tidy this up later ! :)

hey dear. its great talking to you ovr the phone tht night. you must update ur blog mre often alright? cos everytime whn i come in i see the same msg of mmine. now i dnt wanna ask so mch all i hope for is to get ovr this sickening period. hope everythg's fine for u. whnevr you need anybody remember na's here alright? you knw everytime whn i go to church ta pray i still am kneeling there the longest? i think i'm asking god for too mch. :| tkcre alright dear? dont wanna mke me worry for you right? [ele] hey :) thnks for being there for me alright? but 1 hope no one has ta be there for me cos i dont wanna be going thru anythg tht's needs people to be there to see me cry i want em to be there to see me happy and to share all the joy with me! thnkew for evrythg ele. :)

hey joe. suddenly feel so special, i dont hafta go to the gbk to tell you thgs. now i can jst say whtevr i want to you on ur blog. [shit i'm a little crazy today] feel so tired am goona sleep now. alr 1 am and i have been doing my chemistry assignment. cant stand it they give us so many assignments! :l -na

okayy ! im sharing the blog with edna, my dearest, from now on yea ! :)

[edna] hey sister dear :) jst came here to try!

-winks at krs- yupp went out with kris and had lotsa fun. hahah those acsb guys are real bastards. they knew we sat there and we jus left a while and they actually kicked kris's bag away ? and ele, one of them is your fren ? -frowns- anyhows, we left our paper there and we drew really stupid stuff there. hahahah -covers face- OH, and we asked our CHIOBU for her number ! hahahh -laughs and rolls on the floor- she is really very pretty mans. hahaha SIPING, she's mine not yours lohh. HAHA. kris and i were eating in yoshi then this lady called wendy approached us and asked us for our age cos she wants to flim above 16 yr old girls, haha but wells, i think she had kris in mind. :) and on sun, mel and i went on a shopping spree. bought like tons of skin care products ? we staying in watsons for almost an hr plus i think. hahah but it was fun ! :) she bought this foot spray thing to overcome the odour of stinky feet but i think she really needs it -grins- wanted to say sth abt melissa

hahah jus went to j8 with kris. had lotsa lotsa fun. hahaha. so many weird pple hang out there. hahah anyhows, thts kris and my song ! we love tht song ! squeals with delight. -hugs kris real tight- :)))

if you knew how many nights ive been sitting by your bed runnin fingers through your hair while you're asleep. every time i call your name or softly whisper in your ear you turn around to look for me and no one's there where ever you are where ever you go ill be around ill be around just want you to know if you're lost without me wondering where i might be ill be waiting just around the corner of your eye like an angel watching meet me when you're dreaming ill be waiting just around the corner of your eye i could be your pot of gold everything you're wishing for, but do you really want to find the rainbows end. let me know and ill come true i will give my all to you but don't let anybody take your dream away there's a song playing in every heart beating in a key that unlocks every door there's a time for knowing what's behind the curtain and it's all you're wishing for

edna, okayy. im talkin to you now but hell, still gonna leave you a note. okayy. you see, what i feel abt ser, im really glad tht we were besties. really, she left alot of pleasant and sweet memories for me. sometimes thinkin abt the frenship we had still makes me cry, but undeniably, its really over. our bestie ship is something thts really tough for us to rebuild cos of so many things tht happened. we even seldom talk to each other now, the most we do is jus wave and say hi to each other in the canteen. i dont noe whats going on in her life and she doesnt noe whats going on in my life even thou i try very hard to recommunicate with her. yea. we might be good frens again but being besties again is really tough. moreover im no longer close to them anymore, ive got my sec 3 frens and its better this way. not tht i dont want them as frens anymroe, but its jus tough for me to try to forge what we used to have. maybe i jus dont suit having a bestie cos i dont noe why, but im pro

jus came back frm town. went there with kris, ele and mel first then i bought this really damn nice book and alot of pens. and ele bought this really nice pencil ! growls with envy. ahha then we went to long john's to eat and per and vaune and ping came to join us then i went with vaune and ping to pluck eyebrows. okayy, ping plucked her eyebrows and she seriously looks good ! :) hahah then we went shopping. hahah vaune's is really funny and amusing ! we were shopping for clothes and she looked horribly good in this top and skirt. she's so bloody thin ! so ive decided to go on a diet ! and im really determined this time. haha. dieting never fails to remind me of charl. hahahah joggin and all. but well, we've decided to go on a shopping spree on fri and this time round, we are gonna buy clothes ! hahahah cos by fri, we all will have cash ! grins. i can hardly wait. this really helps to get bad thoughts off my mind. and oh my, vaune is really funny. hahahhah. and

whats with me tryin to sound pitiful ? im tryin to make things alright ? and okayy. i wasnt happily playing away with tht stupid dare ? i was worried and all tense over MY own dare i didnt really react damn greatly to her dare ? and okayy, if i dont say sorry to you, what else do you want me to do ? and im not expecting you to feel sorry abt the whole thing, cos the whole thing has nothin to do with you expect tht dare and the thing is, i never ever thought it was ever your fault. if i had thought so, i wont have went to look for ve to talk things out with her then go look for you and talk to you ? and when i was talkin to you, you dont even seem keen to sort things out and make things better ? you were jus busy makin me feel worse abt the whole issue. you're not the only one feelin all humiliated okayy. and alrights, you're humiliated by what we had done, and yes, we realised tht its a big big mistake on our part to do sth so stupid and ME not prioritising your feelings, tht i

if you dont need me jus cos of a stupid dare and misunderstanding, i dont see why i shld even start explaining everythin to you cos im badly mistaken. really. so if you really dont need me cos you dont noe the truth, then jus say i dont need a fren who starts gettin all angry with me cos she assumes things

okayy alrights. so you dont have to bring in my own frenship stuff right ? oh pls. its my frenships and not yours and the thing is tht i did clear things up with her. are you sayin tht ive big attitude problem and i so love to argue and break my frenships ? you think carefully okayy. and if i didnt bother abt what was goin on, i wld have msged you like 3 times tht day and you didnt reply a single msg of mine ? i tried to apologise to you but you were being all so sacarstic ? and you're not okayy with me and ele only ? ytd, i wanted to talk to you, but it wasnt me who didnt want to go ? you think carefully before you start blaming me ? PLS. its not ME who didnt want to go. i was waiting for somebody. and char and ve started scolding me cos i WANTED TO GO ? ironic hurr ? i dont mind if you guys start blaming me for not being able to face up to you or not, but for heaven's sake, its NOT ME ! so go find out the truth. i dont noe what you guys have been saying, especially her okayy.

im at ele's hse now with freda and ping. was at ele's hse ytd with freda too. tot it was pretty fun until the end. i really hate ytd. sucks loads :l guess im at fault AGAIN. it is always my fault isnt it ? everyone's so concerned abt other pples' feelings except mine. well, probably to them, i dont even have feelings right ? and yes, so its partly my fault and well, i deserve to be blamed for everythin hurr ? stop msgin me to tell me off. i know what im supposed to do and for goodness sake dont scream at me when you bloody hell dont know what exactly happened cos you werent there and pls dont ever assume that i dont want things back to normal cos i really want them to. there reasons tht no one will ever understand no matter how hard i try to explain. so jus leave me alone alrights + cos i dont want the world to see me cos i dont think tht they understand when everythin's made to be broken i jus want you to know who i am +

went to wyn's hse on thursday with ele and mel. really had a great talk with ele. so glad ive got my bitch there for me always. always bitchin abt pple to her. hahaha wells. then ytd, went to ping's hse and it was really fun ! our hands were so dirty and we kept eatin chocolate and her family members are such great pple :))) yes. today's so borin and im not allowed to go out and im so lazy to blog ! eeks. haven been feelin too gd and im missing edna so so much. sighs :(( EDNA, i miss you dear !

the greatest pain in life is not to die but to be ignored to lose the person you love so much to another who doesnt care at all to have someone you care so much abt to throw a party and not tell you abt it when your favourite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation to have pple think tht you dont care the greatest pain in life, is not to die but to be forgottened to be left in the dust aft another's great achievement to never get a call frm a fren jus sayin 'hi' when you show someone ur innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face for frens to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to life your spirits when it seems like the only person who cares abt you. is you

oh man. meteor garden two is really really sad. been watchin the past few nights till 4am plus. so sickening sad. always end up crying. yikes. and KRIS, ure damn damn lame okayy ! wth, what a red wheelchair made of hay and grass. scare the hell outta me when i read the msg, i still have it, "im riding on my new wheelchair ! whee ! lol x)" haha. i was watchin my show halfway and when i read the msg i was so so shocked. i tot u really got urself a wheelchair ? haha. mad woman.

there's sth really wrong with my blog. my whole template's gone. its not tht ive not been bloggin. yikes. gotta change template again. wells, edna, its not tht there's sth wrong the frenship or anythin, i dont noe okayy. the point is tht day i wasnt angry or was in a bad mood or anythin. yea. so dont be too touchy abt it okayy.

feels damn good to noe tht at least ping trust me now. glad i called her. sighs. realised ive been missin out on lotsa stuff and is it jus me tht im falling out with almost everyone ? :(( this is really bad. yea. i haven stepped a single step outta the hse for close to a week ! gracious. and lost twenty bucks to jordan last night when we were playin cards and bingo. we stayed up all night till 3am. and i lost almost all my money. including the losses i regained. argh. no more gambling for me. but think mom's gonna play majong with us ltr. ahah. shall try to win back all my money. but jordan's nice, he treated us to pizza jus now. haha. anyhows, ive gotta thank kris, mel, ve and ken, ele [muh bitch] and obviously, my new found bestie, WYN for always bein there for me yea ? really thanks to u guys yupp. and yes, i still think guys are major jerks and obviously, they suck !! yucks. :|

two guys think that i backstabbed them, what can i say..so be it. but even my good fren supposedly backstabbed me. gees. all these backstabbing is doin any one good anyways. and why shld i even be bothered and affected by them in the first place right ? they jus dont me well enough to comment on what i do jus when they themselves do backstab others too. i shant give a damn to them any longer since they want this to turn out this way. shrugss. its over and done i guess and ill lead my own live. haha. today's jus totally screwed up. ARGGHH. but shant ruin my day cos of some idiots who try to run my life. :)

alrights alrights im blogging ! enough of pple breathin down my neck askin me to blog ! :)) yupp. stupid SARS lahh. my mom's confining me at home for 3 days before i can go out ! she's so so paranoid. keep askin me to keep away frm this person, tht person. practically everybody. haha. and she refuses to slp in the same room as my dad cos he goes out to work. bleahh. stupid woman. haha. so these 2 days have been majorly DULL and boring. anyhows, my new hp no is 98111823. yea. kris- i love love love love goin out wif you ! you bring so much LAMENESS to us. hahahha. but i love it ! :) jun- haha. must go out again alrights. ure so klatzy ! what you did to your beef bowl. hahahahahah. grins. ele- BITCHH !! you always NEVER reply my msgs one lohh. BITCHH im REALLY bored :(

went town with ser, pings, mel, alex, sean, des and some other pple. haha. had pretty loads of fun. everyone was so majorly lame today! haha. i realised tht most guys are childish and lame. and they all have girl probs and sean said he has a dioploma in 'understanding girls' and des has the bachelor cert. "my 15 years of uni on the understanding girls course paid off" hahah. so crappy right? the fact is, they both dont understand girls at all. haha. then pings and mel went to catch their movie. yupp. then went to heeren, wanted to eat sakae but was so damn crowded, on the way out, saw junia. then aft tht, we all cabbed home. and now i rid of all the smoke smell. ucks.

cant you see that you lie to yourself. you cant see the world thru a mirror. it wont be too late when the smoke clears, cos im, im still here. :)

ytd was pretty fun i guess? haha. went town with serene, mel, ele, pings, vaune and the rest. then mel, ser and i went to play pool with sean and alex and as usual, i just sat there. sean is so so lame and crappy. he tried to be angry with me but he so didnt succeed. just ended up laughin. haha. the journey home with ser was really funny. haha. so lame. we were like competing who was the lamest. laughed like shit. and when i came home, realised tht my family was out and i was locked out of the hse for an hr plus? and i had no dinner. :| haha. and i realised the weather has been so hot cos of indonesia's forest fires. haha. AND, i saw my eye candy ! :))) na - haha. who are you talking abt? whose photo do you have? haha. so silly.

just came back frm bona vista. went there with serene tan xue lin to make her ez link card but found out tht some kind soul actually returned it. hahah. she was so disappointed cos she didnt get to make a new one and had to stick to her ugly fido picture. haha. so evil. yupp. very tired. it was a one hr journey there, a one hour wait for her bro's ezlink card to be done and an one hr journey back home. arggh. need to get back to studyin really soon. :| and i really still have no idea who 'xxx' is. hmm. today hasnt been all pleasant cos i found tht she changed alot. sighs and i didnt get to see my eyecandy today. bleah :(

another day is going by, im thinking about you all the time but you're out there, and im here waiting and i wrote this letter in my head cos so many things were left unsaid but now you're gone, and i cant think straight this could be one last chance to make you understand id do anything just to hold you in my arms to ry to make you laugh somehow i cant put you in the past id do anything just to fall asleep with you will you remember me ? cos i know i wont forget you together we broke all the rules dreaming of dropping out of school and leave this place, to never come back so maybe aft all these years if you miss me have no fears ill be here, ill be waiting