had lots and lots of fun todae! edna, charl and me pon e last part of e science wrkshop and went ter thomson plaza. i saw dis v.swt dress. gonna buy it while edna saw dis nice toga. :) went ter edna's house ter swim wif char, peisi, edna and pingx. charl joined us ltr. taught all of dem ter do e sumersault into e water. :) -proud of myself- had lotsa fun in e pool. me and charl v.nottie. cox pingx had her period. [she practicallie has it 4 times a month] but both of us jux pushed her into e water. -grinx- and peisi and pingx stupidlie fell frm e swing. -laufs- got out of e pool onli at 4. edna, charl and me bathed in e same toilet. and edna was bathin nude naked while charl and i faced e wall. den followed bie me den charl. damn obsene but yah..who cares? -laufs- den we all went ter eat roti prata and dose stupid bimboes kept tryin on hair accessories in 711. i was jux standin arnd waitin. but yuppers. had a great great time todae. v.tired and drained now. -sulks-
[pingx] sorr...
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++been cryin since e dae u went awae++
went ter bras basah wif char and ronx todae. wasnt too borin i guess. :) den we went over ter ronx house and watched a walk ter rem. char was complainin tt e movie was horrible. but i found it rather sappie! wanted ter crie but couldn larx. in ronx house. :/ hahas. todae was rather borin yet fun. geex. seriouslie need a life. -sulks-
[ronx & char] thnkx fer todae. -smiles- it bets stayin at home! :) lurve both of u lots.
[e rest] miss all of u alot alot alot and manie manie manie! -sulks-
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dun realli feel like bloggin. been a real borin borin dae. -sulks- need some life.
[pingx] deariex. hope u havin fun over in malaysia. wo ai ni duo duo!
[ronx] sorrie larx!! hahas. anihows i still lurve ya alot!!! manie and manie!
[ser and jo] hope both of u r doin fine. i m rather affected bie worts happenin between e both of u. both of u refuse ter tuk. :/ haix give me a call if anione of u wanna tuk okiex? -huggiex-
[yingx] no probs! i will alwaes be here fer ya gurlie! wo ai ni!
[charl] hope ya havin fun in bintan too! i lurve ya gurlie and i miss u alot alot alot! muz rem our shoppin list kayx? ilu
[edna] sweetie pie! u r in camp now ritex? haix. miss ya lots. muz go out more often yeas? wo ai ni duo duo!
[peisi] hope everythin is fine wif ya okiex? i still lurve ya lots.
[char] clown! muz go out more often kayx. pls read e stuff posted properlie kayx! -giggles-
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What they’re like: Sagittarian girls are often eternal students who have a thirst for learning all their lives. They love to be on the go, so travel appeals to them. Girls born under this sign have a positive outlook on life, are adaptable and quick to develop new interests. Sagittarian girls suffer from extreme moods – when they’re up, they are overenthusiastic and when they’re down, they crash into the depths of despair. They sometimes rubbish people who do not share their views. They are optimistic, good-humoured, very intellectual, honest, irresponsible and tactless.
Likes: Having a gamble and any outdoor activity.
Love Style: She runs hot and cold, but there will never be a dull moment in her love life.
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Colours: Violet and Indigo
Gemstone: Turquoise
Lucky Day...
-yawns- had swell of a fun at e bbq at pingx's place last nite. althou manie things cropped up but i still enjoyed myself a great deal. -smiles- when ronx jux arrived at pingx' house last nite, i was so happie ter see her tt i jumped on her but she didnt catch me and ended up wif both of us fallin on e rough granite road and scratched ourselves. my back is still rather sore aft tt. sorrie ronx! -giggles- yupperx. spent lotsa time in pingx room comfortin e hurt souls. hahas. all of u! cheer up kayx? i will still lurve all of u! nort like i m in a better position ter sae tt. but aft yest, i feel so much better. sighs. hope all of u r feelin e same wae yeas?
[yingx] cheer up kayx? its nort worth it cryin over tt adulterous pair. -laufs- we will all be here fer u. and i realli do hate tt bitch now. but i still lurfe ya!
[pingx] barbarian darlin.dun worrie tt u would haf ter retain yeas? we will both strive hard ter acheive better results kayx? i lurve ya!
[ser] lettin...
summer's ended and without a trace
time goes bie while u remain
funnie how I tot I walked on throu
wif my heart in one
y do I still crie fer u
dyin ter get close ter u
y do I still fear ter face
e ghost of u
how I tried ter get u of my mind
but u return all e time
I believed i could jux let u go
like e fool I am
ive been tryin ter release u
ter get my feet baq on e ground
still I need my hope ter hold on ter
even if i noe i should baq awae
it's jux a part of me tt I can't erase
everytime i look awae i see
e ghost of u
dere is no humiliation in failing, comin up short, nort measurin up, making tt giant leap and fallin flat on our faces. humiliation exists onil when other pple r watchin
-yawnss- was realli tired todae. wun blog much. wanna go ter bed. but still haf ter call e stupid beng. sighs. was so shagged todae. aft all e studies and stuff. still haf a long wae tom. -sulks-
[charl and pingx] i lurve both of u so so so so much! i lurve my sis and my boyfren! -mwah-
[ronx] gurlie. cheer up yeas? tell ya stuff tom! -xcited-
[ser] haf been gettin lotsa hell ritex? dun fret yeas? uve got manie pple arnd u tt u care. show more sensitivitie ter dem [goes fer me too i suppose?] i lurve ya muchie freak!
[peisi, char, yangx, ronx] todae was rather fun! hahahas. wort marilyn manson mans. wort a big mistake. but it was still worth it and enjoyable. was realli tired todae. guess all of were. anihows, maybe dere mite realli so mani pple surroundin me, but feelin alone doesn onli contri...
[[ send me ur pillow ]]
send me e pillow tt u dream on
dun u noe tt i still care fer u
send me e pillow tt u dream on
so darlin, i can dream on it too
each nite while i m sleepin, so lonelie
i'll share ur lurve in dreams tt once were true
send me e pillow tt u dream on
maybe time will let our dreams come true
send me e pillow tt u dream on
so darlin, i can dream on it too
i've waited so long fer u ter write me
but jux a memory's all tt's left of u
send me e pillow tt u dream on it oo
so darlin, i can dream on it too
[ronx]
(( i bless e dae i found u
i want ter stae arnd u
and so i beg u, let it be me
dun take dis heaven frm me
if u mux cling on ter someone
now and ferever, let it be me
each time we meet lurve, i find complete lurve
without ur sweet lurve, wort would life be?
so nv leave me lonelie
tell me u lurve me onli
and tt u'll alwaes let it be me))
listen ter e rhythm of e fallin rain
tellin me jux wort a fool ive been
i wish tt it would go
and let me cry in vain
and let me be alone again
e onli gurl i care abt has gone awae
lookin fer a brand new start
but little does she noe
tt when she left tt dae
along wif her
she took my heart
rain pls tell me now
does tt seem fair
fer her ter steal my heart awae
when she dun care
i cant lurve another
when my heart's
somewhere far awae
rain wun u tell her
tt i lurve her so
pls ask e sun ter set her heart a glow
rain in her heart
and let e lurve we knew start ter grow
++ dun dey noe its e end of e world. it ended when i lost ur lurve ++
-boos- supposed ter watch movie todae. but spiderman was sold out. -sulks- damn lousie. had lotsa fun in e beginnin till we ended up sittin down and tukin abt all of ur doubts and probx.
[ronx] deariex. i realil dunno wort else ter sae ter ya. jux wanna let u noe tt wortever i told ya todae..throughout e whole dae was rite frm my heart. nothin is concealed. i realli do lurve ya alot. -mwah-
[ser] cleared everthin wif ya finallie. haix. feel a sense of relief. hahahas. u take care gurlie. wo ai ni!
[edna] happie happie happie! finallie baq ter our old sillie waes. hahahs. ilu!
[charl] sister. dun be so mad or feel like a toy animores yeas? sorrie fer wortever i did wronglie or if i showed insensitivitie todae. -sighs- still lurve ya sillie gurl.
[pingx] geex. u seemed realli angrie at e end of e conversation. worts wrong? haix. sometimes i think tt u keep too manie things ter urself. maybe u sh...
baq frm ronx house again. haix. didnt manage ter studie much. onli me and ronx seemed willing ter studie lorx! was realli pissed at dem fer nort wantin ter studie -sighs- aniwaes..need ter go off soon ter mug. baq ter stupid physics in which i dun understand a single thing at all!! -sulks-
[pple] yay!! tom's is our last dae! happie happie happie! -jumps fer joy- but meanwhile all of us mux realli mug yeas? seems like everyone updated their blogs..hmm..
-yawnss- at jo's house now. supposed ter all studie together. ended up wif myself studyin onli. ser and jo jux cannot make it. -grinx- v.proud of myself. mananged ter studie!! -smiles- but i m nort like even halfwae done. haf lotsa stuff ter catch up wif i guess. -sighs- still haf lit ter go!! okiex..be4 comin ter jo's house, char, pei, charl, char, ronx, pingx, jo, ser and me were all at pingx's house. -smiles- i jux forgot tt i left a pack of chips in her house! bet she is goin ter eat dem up..jux like e wae she ate my amos cookies tt i left dere e other time up. -chuckles- yupx..baq ter her house. i was e onli one studyin arnd e table cans? everyone else was playin. eeks. when i m serious, e rest r nort. wort is dis manx? -giggles- wellx. feelin kinda bored now. wonder wort e two of dem r doin in e room.-giggles-
[ronx] haes darling! u mux realil studie dis time kayx? todae i handed in a blank sheet fer historie. i m jux so dead. hahahas. wells
i realil didnt studie...
[[ now i wun be lonely
wif my one and onli
and i can see forever
e feelin here in my heart
he is so lovelie
ya.my one and onli
and we would be together
nv ter be apart
he belongs ter me
and i can onli see
nites of estacy
i would go crazee
without my one and onli
i lurve him madlie
and i want him onli
and nothin realli matters
as long as he is in my arms
he is my babie
ya.my one and onli
den wort we hav is special
and it is deep in my soul
i would take him slowlie
oh. my one and onli
and its e onli wae
i gonna spend my daes ]]
( my one and onli - lum may yee )
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we both noe i shouldn be here
dis is wrong
and babie its killin me its killin u
both of us tryin ter be strong
i got somewhere else ter be
promises ter keep
fer someone else who lurves me
and trusts me fast asleep
ive made up my mind
dere is no turnin baq
she's been good ter me
and she deserves better than tt
its e hardest thing ill ever hav ter do
ter look u in e eyes and tell u i dun lurve u
its e hardest thing ill ever hav ter lie
ter show no emotions when u start ter crie
cant let u see wort u mean ter me
when my hands r tied and my heart's nort free
we're nort meant ter be
its e hardest thing ill ever haf ter do
ter turn arnd and walk awae
pretend tt i dun lurve u
i jux simplie detest ter tuk abt dis issue. its jux a small matter. but it seems as if everyone is so so keen ter split? worts dis? wort abt who u can trust more. who u want over ur side? if u all dun understand wort i am sayin abt havin ter speak ter all of u..go ask yangx. she called me tt dae..i told her everythin. i m in a v.bad position. probablie all of u would jux brush it aside? -smiles sadlie- who noes? in a cliq..u definitely haf some close frens tt u confide in all e time. like pei and char ritex? u cant expect ter be close ter everyone. who doesnt feel left out. in e morns, i alwaes feel left out. when we r walkin ter e field i alwaes feel left out. when me and edna or whoever else speaks ter ser in hush voices, we r usuallie tukin abt some stuff tt u pple wun like ter hear? and e changi airport thing, we haf told all of u e truth, if u pple refuse ter listen wort else can we do ter make all of u believe? all of u jux dun want me present in ur studyin ritex? i can accept e...
haix. i m in big big trouble! -screams- feel so bad and scared. jux cox of me e whole cliq has ter be good. if tt is gonna happen ter me, i dunno how ter face everyone. how am i supposed ter do..how am i supposed ter react ter this? i m jux so lost. -boos-
[ronx] thanx fer bein dere fer me kayx. haix. i lurve ya so much! -huggiex-
[ser] its jux so difficult. if u realli give me ur word, would u seal it wif ur actions? i realli dun wanna enforce anithin on all of u. dis thing is jux too big ter mess wif.
[[ its e hardest thing i ever haf ter do. ter look u in e eyes and tell u i dun lurve u ]]
jux came baq frm ronx house again. had loadsa fun yest wif jo at ronx house. ser and jo kept teasin me abt havin no one ter like cans! but i still haf mr tomato kayx!! -laufs- went ter ronx house wif ser,charl and pingx ter watch ever aft again. hahahas.too bad tt stupid ser slept throu e whole show. -bishx- haix. like worts wrong wif me lorx. cant help but think tt e entire world is turnin its baq on me? -sighs- our cliq is so broken up. wtf. cant be bothered animore. if u pple like sneakin off ter places wifout tellin us or dun want us present..pls dun call us ur frens kayx? wort abt nort answerin someone when e person calls ya? like wortever lorx. =/ eeks. damn bored now. -sighs-
[charl] my courtier sis! eeks. had lotsa fun wif ya todae. hahahas. like we both were so stupid soundin when we tryin ter imitate e courtiers. -grinx- -mwah- lurve ya sweetie!
[pingx] heys deariex. fanci...
sheesh. jo,ser and me r at ronx house again. hahahas.its jux like our second home now. -smiles- was rather irritated and pist jux now cox of a few pple. hmm..but i guess i m alrite now? eeks..e rest r studyin orredi and dey refuse ter tuk ter me unless i join dem now. eeks. but i realli haf no mood ter studie? jo is threatenin me now! =/
[charl] i m sorrie fer havin said all those mean stuff i said in class todae. i was realli pist cox u didn even bother ter ask us? and u confirmed wif me tt u were goin town wif us? den u suddenlie told me tt u were goin ter pingx house ter studie without us? and it was reali obvious tt pingx didnt want me over at her house? wortever larx..i still lurve ya sis! -hugss- i noe u seemed angrie too. but i m nort totallie angry wif ya? so yupx..hope ya dun take it ter heart.
[rest of e cliq] pple studie hard kayx? ermx...u all hav walked out on me so manie manie times!!! eeks.-shrugs- u pple jux cannort studie wif me ritex? hahahas. i noe i m dam...
(( so confused. my heart's bruised. was i ever lurved by u ))
waitin fer ser ter finish studyin wif her gurlfren . so i m bloggin meanwhile. -smiles- had a hell of a time todae. stripped pingx in e room jux now wif RONX . she is a damn good screamer cans. she screamed so so much. hahahas..but yah..i was jux crackin up and had no more energy ter strip her animores.
but still managed ter pull her blouse down ter her shoulders. sorrie pingx! -smiles- ronx is finallie done wif her bio. -sighx- life is so pharqed up. eeks. dunno wort i m gonna do tom. everyone is jux goin home ter studie. and ser is studyin wif her gurlfren cant possiblie join dem and be xtra ritex? -nods head in agreement- eeks. but i badlie need help fer maths! wort m i gonna do?? -shrugs- fail it? but i cant retain mahs..got ronx and e rest! -smiles-
++ outta reach. so far. i nv had ur heart ++
goin off now. tatas. =)
>
at ronx house again. hahahas...i slpt fer 2 hrs on her bed. couldn resist myself frm sleepin...realli damn tired -smiles- but we did manage ter studie kayx. pingx is so kiasu..keep on studyin and kept on saying "studie larx! i realli v.scared i cannot finish lehs!!" hahahas...i was jux goin like wortever lorx! but i m glad cox i m onli left wif one chapter! -beams- hahahahas. todae was realli quite terrible aft sch..cox i was damn pissed off..said alot of mean stuff. but i was realli gettin on my nerves. wort exactlie does she want manx. tried tukin ter her but its damn diff ter communicate wif her orredi. and e other HER jux refuses ter tuk it out wif me. y does it seem tt i m e onli one who seems ter bother and care? no one else gives and damn abt it. eeks. shant bother too den. =/ eeks..cant blog animore, e stoopid yingx keeps buggin me ter hurrie up. hahahas...i kept her waitin fer v.long orredi. -smiles- did it on purpose! hahahas. thurs is maths! i m jux gonn...
+ dun lurve me fer fun gal. let me be e one gal. lurve me fer a reason, let e reason be lurve +
geex. haven been updatin my blogs due ter e up and comin midyrs. hav been tryin ter mug real hard. -smiles- yest, pingx, ser, charl, me and sam went over ter ronx house ter studie. hahahas....realli hard ter concentrate. pingx and i ended up slpin and playin in e room. pingx was jux crackin me up alot alot. she was holdin onto e bolster while i lied on e bed. she claimed tt she was HUA MU LAN and was swingin e stupid bolster arnd mumbling some stupid chinese phrases which didn realli make much sense ter me thou. hahahas. -laufs wildlie- den we started fightin cox she wacked me wif e bolster cox i was laufin too hard at her. but i wasnt my fault worts, it was realli damn damn funnie. -laufs- yupperx....so e rest downstairs complained tt we were too noisy and dey joined us upstairs in e room. hahhahas....den we all jux started studyin. aft a bit of studies, ronx,pingx and i lied on e bed...
[[ ++ petal by petal I pull
"she lurves me, she lurves me nort"
is dis lurve real, is it true?
it mux be, it has ter be
fer my love kindles
rite frm e pits of my heart
but e lurve I so desire
is nore e lurve i burn so greatlie
wort a nautious reality lurve can be
ter lurve, but nv be lurved in return
maybe one day, my one true love I will find
someone ter lurve and be lurved in return
Until den, I sit
"she lurves me, she lurves me nort"
petal by petal I pull ++ ]]
i dun like dis feelin
but its reallie makin me die
i hate ter act like a fook
but dese feelings r true
e fact is tt ure so far .
well, wort else can i sae
is it worth it fer me ter trust
e truth is, i dun want ter wait tt long
i am afraid someday these feeling i haf will be gone,
i cannot gurantee it will last forever.
but i really wonder,
is it too late fer me ter sae
"Yes, I'll wait"
i walked
do u rem tt dae
e dae i walked all e wae
all e wae ter ur house and back
jux ter find ure nort dere
u were in person but nort in mind
tts somethin i need ter help u find
i asked u one question
u gave me no answer
u jux sat dere watchin tears roll down my face
i couldn find words ter sae
i jux turned and walked awae
whisperin words so quiet
"i lurve u and alwaes will. i m sorrie"
++ Weird things i write but i write frm e heart for tt is where u hav a great part in ++
todae was jux totallie irritating. eeks. went ter edna's house aft dance todae. went ter e playgrnd ter studie den adjourned ter e table tennis room ter studie. didnt realli studie. ser was in a bad mood fer wort i told her -sighs- sorrie gurl. shouldn haf told ya. but i m v.mad wif ya!! how can u break ur promise lorx. and u make a poor lawyer, alwaes contradictin wort u said earlier! -shrugs-
[wyn] wyn cow tay..dun be so upset orredi yahs? i understand wort ya feel yeas? dun crie ya sillie crybabie!
i reached my hand out
ter a hand tt would nort onli lurve,
but be willin ter give more
it was dere ter hold
when no one else's was.
it was dere ter hold
maybe jux becox
i needed nort jux a fren
but someone who would be dere until end
e end of wort? I do nort noe
but at least I'll haf
ur hand ter hold -mwah-
[sam] heys gal. dun be so upset and pist yeas? i m sure...
xxoo and aubrey was her name
and nort so an ordinary gal or name
but who is ter blame
fer a lurve tt wunt bloom
fer e hearts tt nv played in tune
like a lovely melody
like everyone can sing
take awae e words tt rhyme but doesn mean a thing
and aubrey was her name
we tripped e light and danced together ter e moon
but when it was june
no it nv came arnd
if it did it nv make a sound
maybe i was absent or was listenin ter fast
catchin all e words, but den e meanin goin past
but God i miss e gurl
and i would go a thousand times arnd e world jux ter be
closer ter her than ter me
and aubrey was her name
i nv knew her, but i lurved her jux e same
i lurved her name
wish tt i had found e wae
and e reasons tt would make her stae
i haf learnt ter lead a life apart frm all e rest.
if i can't haf e one i want, i'll do without e best
but how i miss e gurl
and I'd go a million times arnd e world jux ter sae
she had been mine fer a dae xxoo
aubrey - b...
>
finished studyin e first chap of bio! finally! -smiles- m prouda myself! haix..but still haf lotsa things ter studie lehs! -gramices-
[pingx] fine larx.shall be nice todae! u r NORT childish kayx? -huggiex- see ya tom e barbarian who lives in e castle!
[charl] dearest sister concubine! we shall seriouslie assasinate e princess tom! -grinx- both of u haf a great time over at ur place kayx? dun be nottie! rem ter studie!! i lurve ya concubine sis!! -huggs-
once again, its sundae mornin. hmm..guess i slept well last nite fer e first time in e week. -smiles- had a great tuk wif pingx last nite. told her lotsa stuff =) thanx pingx fer listenin ter my crap yeas? -laufs-
[pingx] geex..thanx fer listenin ter me crap and crap yeas? u mux learn ter give in ter ur mom sometimes. nort onli give in, make it a point ter listen and adheed ter her advices. i m sure u can do it gurl! i lurve ya!
[ronx] i nv tot tt u could be a true fren who's dear ter me. when i m in frail u gave me strength. ter help me grow and make me stand. through thick and thin ure alwaes dere. though we see each other so rare, sharin dose laughter and pain we both knew. rememberin dose laughter and pain we both knew. time has passed, others haf gone. still u remain beside me whom i can lean on. ter continue does moments of time we've shared. a unique kind of frenship in our hearts tt care. god sent a fren who believes and understands me. in my life i'll trea...
alone is hurtin wif no one ter care
no one ter be wif and no one ter lurve.
when life comes ter a point where nothin is fair,
when everythin is going wrong and u felt empty inside.
alone is reachin out fer somethin
and findin nothin is dere.
holdin on ter nothin
praying tt dere is hope.
alone is feelin tt dere is no point in livin
wantin ter be wif someone, but havin no one.
feeling u aren't good enuff
but tryin ter impress everyone
alone is havin nothin
but wantin everythin or at least somethin ter hold.
being alone and scared,
wishing someone would hold u
and say, "I Lurve You!"
alone is wantin ter stay at school or work,
jux ter haf someone near.
checking e answerin machine,
when u noe no one called,
but ur mom.
>alone is cryin urself ter sleep,
and nort wantin ter wake up afterwards
scared of wort e morning will bring,
nort wantin ter leave ur house.
alone is lettin people use u,
jux ter be cl...
[[ y dun i like e gal i see
e one tts standin rite in front of me
y dun i think before i speak
i should haf listened ter tt voice inside me
i mux be stupid, mux be crazee, mux be out of my mind
ter sae e kinda things i said last nite ]]
maybe i jux dun mean tt much ter dem animore -shrugs- todae was swimmin carnival..wasnt tt bad but yah..most of e clique didnt turn up. onli charl and pingx turned up. was realli glad tt dey did act bother ter turn up. thanx -smiles- yupx. we won second fer novelty. nort too bad larx..i jux entered e pool and jux anihow grab all e ping pong balls i saw. -realli sillie!- but yah..when i put dem into e pail and turned arnd, i realised tt dere was no more left ter be picked, so i jux waded in e pool and accordin ter charl, i looked sillie wadin and frolickin in e pool. -grinx- but anihows, edna is nort feelin well now. geex..mux take care yeas? haix.
[ser] got lotsa things ter tell u. pls go home soon! -sobs-
[ronx] i dunno worts wrong ka...
eeks. todae was both fun and nort fun =( e oral test was jux horrible. den wyn was so nice..she follwed me ter third lang center ter get my midyr results [thanx cow!] damn horrible! eeks. so yah we went baq ter sch. but i didnt get ter studie at all! -sulks- so yah..dey were playin *pepsi cola 1,2,3* at e sisters bridge. hahahas..damn funie =) aft tt, dey had ter do their letters of adjustment and complaints. so i sat at e bench wif ser and started tukin. and she told me a damn nice storie..v.swt. den she rushed ter do her work orredi. eekx..den next came pingx.so i sat wif her again at e bench, bie den, e sky was dark and e stars were out. so i sat dere tukin and listenin ter her. BUT miss choo came and chase all of awae...so char, peisi, edna, ser and me sat at e voiddeck tukin abt all kinda stuff...e ghost thing realli scared me alot alot =) luckily peisi's dad sent us home! went past seletar reservoir. v.nice! shall make a trip dere one dae!
[pingx] i seriouslie dunno wort...
here i m alone at nite. watching e stars in e dark skie tt is so bright. tot if i still had a chance ter be wif u i'll be holdin u so tight nv ter let u go.its jux like a delusion fer me. e delusion tt nv comes back into my life. cox u're gone. i miss u so much. still cant believe y dis is happenin ter my life. its so hard fer me ter let dis feeling disappear. u make me uncertain wif ur assure. if deres part of me tt still stays in ur heart.i long ter be cared, nort ter be betrayed. i long ter be lurved,nort ter be given delusions frm u.i haf enlightened u wort lurve is. i need u ter be near me by my side.feel u in my arms. and i promise u dis lurve will last ferever.cox i m truly still in lurve wif u gal.now all i can do is ter cherish e moments tt we shared. and lurve tt we made, u'll be everlastingly in my compassion frm now until e day on. dear angels in e skies above, pls tell me wort ter do. pls tell me how ter sae e words. words tt can make her come back into my arm...
i m realli serious tt i would box anione if dat person ever criticises pingx, char or veron or make dem feel upset. i m v.sure i would. dun lauf or despise dem. everybodie makes mistakes and learn frm dem. stop comparin pple ter each other. its totally irrelevant! dun scorn dem but learn ter forgive and forget and give dem a second chance! t[ter all of u][ i would alwaes be here fer all of u. dun be upset or despised cox u dun hafta bother abt wort others sae abt u. cox nort everyone mite lurve ya fer wort u r. but all of u can be certain tt i would still lurfe all of u fer who u r! -smiless-
i peak in e mirror
cryin eyes i see
tears of desperation
of a soul begging ter be free
she stares back in silence
glazed eyes fixed on me
i noe she is hurting
trapped in a lonely sea
a smile she tries ter give
ter cover all e pain
behind e golden smile thou
she slowlie turns insane
no one understands her
her aching heart she hides
no fren ter comfort e grief
ambiguous feelings she keeps inside
she jux goes arnd in circles
confused and afraid
alone and so distant
frm e past which now fades
fer a thousand worlds she lost
her blanket torn apart
she noes nort who ter turn ter
or how ter make a new start
so she cries, jux cries
tears u cannot see
but I can see her loneliness
cox she's inside of me
i m home! hahahs...todae was jux terrifyin. char,ping and ronx got into serious trouble! gonna apologise ter e whole sch tom in e morn? [dun fret my dear frens! i would be alwaes here fer all of u kayx? i m sure i wun lauf at all of u and i would box anione who criticises u pple!! -muacks-] yupperx..so aft sch me and wyn went ter e library ter studie first...she taught me maths..realised tt i was rather easie!! den e rest came ter join us. i didn even studie at all! couldn concentrate at all! -boos- wellx...at least i m glad dat e rest of u managed ter studie? -smiles- aft tt..wyn's * came so we went ter pingx house while she went somewhere else -grinx- hahahas. upon arrival at pingx house, we realised tt ping didnt hav e house keys. so all of us had ter climb over e gate -smiles- so we sat at e porch and tuked. however, charl and i went out ter 7-11 ter buy stuff. managed ter tuk ter her abt alot of things. realised tt she realli understands me and we both share e same sentiments ...
geex..jux completed my studies fer chinese test tom. eeks. -yawnss- haven written my letter ter my attach yets! [pingx] hahahas..yah i m attached ter her but its of cox fer FUN nothin more than tt! hahaha.think i m gonna fail my chinese like i alwaes do fer all e tests -sulks-
[pingx] hav u written e letter fer ur gurlfren? -smiless- i still cant forget wort u wrote on tt piece of paper! so BHB hahahas. okiex..hav a great slp boyfren! i lurve ya! -muacks and muacks-
[charl] omg! hahahas. -smiless- we hav e same case and we r experiencin e same thing!! hahahas.but jux tt urs is slightly better of cox! i lurve ya gal..and pls dun be so maluated yeas? -kisses ur forehead-
[ser] happie one week anni!! -cornified- ahahas..wellx. hope ya alwaes be so happie wif her kayx? can tell u r damn swt ter her..dun let it turn sour yeas? ilu!
[ronx] geex.. i miss u alot!!!! i seriously do lehs! geex..when can i sit wif u again and irritate u wif my wet aloe vera tissue wipes again? -s...
bsb - no one else comes close[courtesy of wyn]
when we turn out e lights
e two of us alone together
something's jux nort right
but girl u noe tt i would nv
ever let another's touch, come between
e two of us
cox no one else will ever take ur place
no one else comes close ter u
no one makes me feel e wae u do
u're so special girl ter me
and u'll alwaes be eternally
every time I hold u near
u alwaes sae e words I lurve ter hear
girl wif jux a touch u can do so much
no one else comes close
and when I wake up ter
e touch of ur head on my shoulder
u're my dream come true, oh yeah
girl u noe I'll alwaes treasure
every kiss and everyday I'll lurve u girl in every wae
and I alwaes will
walking along a dusty road
e nite is dark and cold
no stars in e sky,
no moon rising above me.
all alone wif no one arnd
no light ahead, no houses in e distance,
no one ter take me frm dis awful place,
I walk alone on dis dark path.
as i walk, e wind blows, and i dream,
i dream a dream of happiness,
a dream of light ahead, of a moon rising,
a dream of stars twinkling in e sky.
a dream of no hoplessness or pain,
loneliness or uglyness
a dream of birds chirping in e morning
or cyotes howling at night.
i trip over a rock and fall,
and fall and fall and fall,
it feels like i m falling forever,
into a bottemless pit, where pain lasts.
Until I hit e ground hard,
as i lie dere i think,
is dere really such a place?
a place where no one abandons u?
a place where u can laugh,
where u can sing and dance,
and jux be happie.
Its a sillie dream, deres no such thing.
Fer e rest of eternity I will walk,
walk alone on dis dark...
++ her eyes look dead
though she is onli fifteen
she jux wanders in silence,
as if in a bad dream.
she hardly smiles,
and her expression is cold,
but if u look beyond tt
a tale of torture is told.
one of an unhappy childhood,
and lurves lost again and again,
leaving untracable scars tt nv do mend.
I avoid dis girl's stare,
so tt I dun see,
tt e sad little girl in e mirror,
is jux e reflection of me ++
todae was borin and tiring! eeks. i came home rather earlie todae. and i jux woke up frm my beauty nap! -yawnss- needa studie fer chinese ltr! charl,edna,ping,ser,char and ronx..stayed back in sch ter study todae. didnt want ter join dem cox i was too tired and i probablie felt outta place. -sighss- wellx..hope dey did some serious studies thou..cox i haven studied yet all! -chuckles sadly- heeks..shall go studie now. be baq ltr ter blog somemore! -smiles-
[[=- did u ever lurve someone
but u knew she didnt care
did u ever feel like cryin
but u knew u'd get nowhere
u look into her heart
and wish tt u were dere
u watch her walk awae
nort wantin her ter go
whispering " I lurve you"
but u nv lettin her noe
u crie all night in misery
u almost go insane
dere's nothin in dis whole wide world
tt causes so much pain
if i had ter choose between lurve and death
i think i'd rather die
lurve is fun but it hurts so much
e price ter pay is high
so I sae dun fall in lurve
u'll get hurt before it's through
u see my fren i ought ter noe
i fell in lurve wif u =-]]
Which of the Disney Princesses are you?
You live in a dreamworld all your own. Perhaps you escape to this fantasyland to get away from your troubled past. Because of your preoccupied nature, you might ignore the well-meaning warnings of your parents or guardians. But remember that not all strange...
wort do u see when u look at me?
a cheery and happie person tt lurves ter be free!
wort do u see when u look at me?
a sad and lonely person, tt onli some eyes can see!
do u see e wae i act, when diff pple r arnd?
do u ever wonder if im lost, or if im waitin ter be found?
haf u ever wondered wort's goin on inside my head?
or wort im thinkin when im lyin awake at nite in bed?
no one ever noes y pple behave e wae dey do.
dere's onli one person who noes and tt person is you
okiex. i was in e dumps todae AGAIN! big apology ter edna, pingx, ser. i realli dunno worts wrong wif me. sulked fer e past 2 weeks? -sighs- but i realli do believe in wort all of u told me yeas [tt all of u still lurve me] and i m realli glad ter hear tt. -smiles- [life without lurve is no life at all] i was dere listenin while i pinned my pinafore together. e marks still dere. -sighs- i m realli sorrie yeas? guess all of u also hav no inklin ter y i m like dis cox i m nort sure of it myself too. so dun bother ter ask me cox i realli dun hav e answer. -sighs- todae.went ter pingx house. was quiet throughout e whole journey. -sulks- onli got better aft tukin ter all of u in e house. -smiles- glad tt i at least wasnt sulkin e whole dae. -smiles- e ld was realli damn damn good! [ sam..u were damn chio!!] -smiles- e chips was realli great..hahahas...tt started ter make me tuk! - i m jux weird aint i?- [[ YOU- i am realli sorrie tt i was jux so pissed off bie u fer e last few daes. i noe t...
[[ lately i haf been thinkin
i feel like a tree, in a fall, losin all it's leaves
like an abandoned puppy on a lonely highwae
jux sitting and watchin e long dae go bie ]]
[[ i haf been torn and stitched back together
my life is like a door
jux waitin fer e right person ter open it
i sometimes feel ashamed of myself
like i dun hav a proper life ]]
[[ i m like a puzzle jux waitin ter bie put together
but fer now i feel like e pieces wif no place
lost, dazed, confused
jux waitin ter come back ter reality ]]
[[ i compare myself ter everythin
is tt good or bad?
dis u will nv noe
i m jux a lonely soul, left in e dark ]]
-=i m lookin fer somethin
lookin fer somethin ter fill a void
fer an end ter dis pain
a wae ter be happie again
since u left me, nothin is bright or shinny
a wae ter stop e agony
ter make it nort hurt so bad.
a wae ter make things brighter
a wae ter end my suffering
a wae nort ter make me feel so alone
i m lookin fer somethin ter make
dis pain
go awae =-
eeks. todae was fine i guess. nort everythin was goin all well thou. eeks. damn pist off by my bro. irritatin idiot. worts wrong wif him? i jux screamed "shuddup u sucker" ter him. eeks. hahahas. charl was realli mad wif ser todae cox she felt tt ser was too caught up wif lurve tt she is negelecting us. den i said sumthin tt i think realli made sense [finally] "when someone is in lurve, she would definitely wanna spend more time wif her lurve one. but at dis age, lurve wun last fer long. memories of lurve will last but when one dae, her lurve one leaves her, e onli pple she can turn ter without worrying tt dey would turn their backs on her are her frens who realli care abt her. and i m willing ter be he fren when e world has turned their backs on her..and i m sure all of u would too. =)" yupperx..aft sch..everythin was jux so damn screwed up. hav been upset fer like one week in a row. eeks..everythin jux sux. =( pingx and ronx...we r realli sorrie ter make ya wait? ...
++ u asked me if i lurved u
and i choked on my reply
i rather hurt u honestly
then ter mislead u wif lies
and who m i ter judge u
in wort u sae or do
i m onli jux e beginnin ter see e real u
sometimes when we touch
e honesty is too much
and i have ter close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold u till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold u till e fear in me subsides ++
sundae mrning! e dae i hate e most!! yucks! hahahas. wellx i m goin ter see my lil notti cousin ltr. gonna get a headache and a tough time controllin him again. -smiles- mux start muggin fer midyrs orredi. gonna stae back in sch everydae ter study! [clique =i dun care! i've booked all of u fer e whole week. better stae back and studie wif me! -smiles-]
[wyn] cheer up yahs? dun fret so much..its nort good fer ur health! -huggiex-
[pingx] todae is sundae! hope ter see ya online! sorrie fer nort callin u yest yahs? my mum was tukin through e whole nite!! -bleahs- i lurve ya gal!! -smooches-
gal y do u look so sad?
tears r in ur eyes
come on and come ter me now
dun be ashamed ter cry
let me see u through
cox i haf seen e dark side too
when e nite falls on u
u dunno wort ter do
nuthin u confess
will make me lurve u less
i'll stand bie u
i'll stand bie u
wun let nobodie hurt u
i'll stand bie u
so if ure mad get mad
dun hold it all inside
come on and tuk ter me now
hey wort do u got ter hide
i get angry too
but i m alot like u
i'll stand bie u - the pretenders
i used ter call u my gal
i used ter call u my fren
i used ter call e lurve
e lurve tt i nv had
when i think of u i dunno wort ter do
when will i see u again?
i miss u like crazee
even more than words can sae
i miss u like crazee
every minute and every dae
gal i m so down
when lurve is nort arnd
i miss u like crazee
ure were all tt i want
ure all tt i need
cant u see how i feel
cant u see tt my pain's so real
it started out, jux another dae
i took a shower and went on my wae
i stopped as usual, had a coffee and pie
when i turned ter leave, i couldn't belive my eyes
standin dere i didnt noe wort ter sae
without one touch we stood dere face ter face
and i was dying inside ter hold u
i couldn believe wort i felt fer u
dying inside, i was dying inside
but i couldnt bring myself ter touch u
u said hello and asked my name
i didnt noe if i should go or remain
inside i felt my life had realli changed
i knew tt it would nv be e same
standin dere i didnt noe wot ter sae
first i looked awae, when i whispered ur name
one i known changed my mine
i didnt believe in lurve at first sight
but u haf shown me wort is lurve
i think i lurve her, i noe she's mine
e gal is mine, i jux want ter hold u
i lurve u and i cant help myself
[[ It pains me ter bie so far away,
although it seems tt u r rite here next ter me
u wipe awae my tears,
and turn dem into smiles
u ...
i could stae awake jux ter hear u breathin
watch u smile while u r sleepin
while u r far awae and dreaming
i could spend my life in dis sweet surrender
i could stae lost in dis moment ferever
every moment spent wif u is a moment i treasure
i dun wanna close my eyes
i dun wanna fall asleep
cox i'd miss u, babie
and i dun wanna miss a thing
cox even when i dream of u
e sweetest dream would nv do
i'd still miss u, babie
and I dun wanna miss a thing
lying close ter u
feeling ur heart beatin
and i m wonderin wort u're dreamin
wondering if it's me u're seeing
den I kiss ur eyes and thank God we're together
and i jux wanna stae wif u
in dis moment ferever, ferever and ever
i dun wanna miss one smile
i dun wanna miss one kiss
well i jux wanna be wif u
rite here wif u, jux like dis
i jux wanna hold u close
feel ur heart so close ter mine
and jux stae here in dis moment
Fer all e rest of time
[dun wanna miss a th...
I dun noe y it all happened. i wish i could take it all back. but u noe as well as i tt i can nv do tt. i wish e past were now. and tt we were jux great frens. great frens without a past. great frens wif no strong feelins. i rem when i met u i liked u frm e start. how was i ter noe rite den tt u would so deeply touch my heart? i tried so hard nort ter care, ter lurve u as onli a fren. but my efforts were all in vain. and wantin onli frenship soon died. i didnt want ter tell u. i nv wanted u ter noe tt dere were feelins in my heart fer u. and dey were reali startin ter grow. den one dae someone told u tt i had feelins fer u. i didnt want ter admit. tt wort dey said was true. i had jux gotten my heartbroken and i wasnt ready fer another lurve. but e more i tuked ter u, e more i realised tt u were wort i've alwaex dreamed of. u haf everythin i want in a lurver and a fren. dese feelings i tried ter end. but it seemed e more i fought my feelins, e more my lurve fer u grew. and i couldnt...
(( I used ter think tt I was alone
alone in a world
where pain and sufferin
were no strangers at all
i tried ter carry it
all e loneliness tt I had inside
i hid frm everyone tryin ter escape
but I could nort
and then I realized
as i was walkin
tt I wasn't alone
and someone cared fer me
tt was u
u were dere all along
all dis time u had been wif me
nv leavin my side
u were dere wif me
standin beside me
through thick and thin
through all e agony
when I fell
u picked me up
when i almost gave up
u gave me hope
how could've i been so blind
so as nort ter see u
but now I noe
tt I am nort alone aft all ))
geex..yest was jux terrible..dun wanna tuk abt it =(.thankx so much pingx..i realli owe u alot! i lurve ya gal! -thinkin of yest jux makes me sad- yupx..cried reali hard yahs? -smiles- aniwaex..thankx ter ser and wyn fer making me lauf when i DIDNT want ter! -eekx- well..jux tt jux made my dae better -smooches- and e walk back ter class was realli interesting..in e dark! u pple were realli scardie cats! i jux happened ter blurt somethin out and all of u started screamin and running. realli scared e hell outta me! hahas..todae's test was alrite i guess...aft studyin a few thousand words, dey onli came out wif 5 miserable words -screams- hahahas.but i think i m gonna fail my zhuo wen..i jux crapped through e whole damn thing -eeks- but i m jux glad its over! -smiles- aft e test we went town but everyone didnt realli had e mood ter go especially when ser is sick..and my poor edna darling cried cox all of us had ter go home! [ i m realil sorrie babie..didnt noe my mom wanted me ter go ...